Showing posts with label germany. Show all posts
Showing posts with label germany. Show all posts

27 July 2009

When all is said and done



Yesterday I had a wonderful afternoon with a German friend bumming around Olympiapark. The last two days have been beautiful weather. I wanted to go up Olympiaturm, the Olympic tower, and take one last good look at the Alps--the weather was perfect for it, not a cloud in the sky, clear horizon.

It's been a weekend of Abschiedpartys (farewell parties) and packing--insane amounts of packing. I'm quite proud of myself. I need to do several loads of laundry and dutifully was there when the Getränksverkauf was open so that I could buy my Waschenmarken--otherwise I would have to wait until tomorrow evening, and that wouldn't be good. I fly out Thursday in the Insane Hours of the Morning and Wednesday is my Wrapping Things Up Day.

I'm quite shocked how much Germany has grown on me. Living in an essentially socialist society has been very enlightening for me. I wouldn't ever prefer it to the rough-and-tumble unchecked individualism of the United States, I don't think, but I can see how it appeals. (Here is a very interesting article that appeared in The New York Times Magazine which does a good job of explaining a European socialist country, and has remarkable similiarites to what I have observed here in München. Going Dutch: How I Learned to Love the European Welfare State) People here would never go so far as American niceness, but they do care about each other to some degree, as long as it does not interfere with the lives of others. Though Germany, in my opinion, lacks what I would call universal standard handicapped access, there is never a lack of hands to pull a person in a wheelchair over the steps into a store, to open a door for a woman on crutches, to call the ambulance when someone needs it. It is hardwired into small children (I have seen this collective cultural training in action) to always mind that your own things never interfere with someone else's business. When I think of something really American that would rise the collective German ire, I think of things like huge automobiles and double parking--Americans are not very respectful of another's literal and metaphorical space--probably because we have had the luxury of not having to be. But Germans are very aware where that line between You and Me is and everyone does what they can to preserve the sanctity of that line.

But socialism, for all its wonders, continuously hinges on a lot of factors that don't always coordinate nicely together: payers-in and payers-out of the system. Germany, for all its Kindergeld (the monies new parents receive per child from the government) efforts, is still growing older, and every year 100,000 immigrants come into the country. Socialism also makes what I think can be a disasterous mistake of assuming homogeneity, and can make it very difficult for outsiders to integrate into the culture and the system. These thoughts aren't clear at all, but I feel like in America it's way easier for foreigners to integrate, partly because we aren't assuming that we're all playing by the same rules that socialism demands.

I'm packing up (moving countries is no easy feat), and the room is slowly gaining some sense of Ordnung. Tomorrow will be my last full day in Germany, and I will get up at an Ungodly Hour on Thursday to catch my 7AM flight to Paris, Paris--Houston, Houston--my hometown. In Paris I will be subjected to the mandatory taking alllll my liquids out, practically undressing, and taking my laptop out and taking my shoes off while clutching to my passport and boarding pass for dear life, or, the ritual we call "Security." Oh, so it goes.

Today the JYM group flight left, taking a good chunk of the students with them. I'm trying to keep my spirits up. I'm ready to go back, I've had this adventure and feel even more emboldened to go on to new ones (after navigating daily life in a second language, everything else pales in comparsion! No more having to look up vocabularly words and explain in cumbersome, 7-year-old German what you're after). I've had quite a few San Antonio deja-vu moments, and it shocks me to think I will return to Trinity. But I'm also sad and sentimental about the time here. I think back to my arrival and I realize I didn't even know what I was in for at all, and I'm amazed how well I did, and that I did this at all.

Thanks for all your generous love and thanks for all the fun
Neither you nor I are to blame, when all is said and done
. --ABBA

Photo: Lion of Bavaria holding shield which you rub for luck (glück), Odeonsplatz.

26 June 2009

Go lightly from the ledge babe, go lightly on the ground

Oh baby don't you know I suffer?
Oh baby can't you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretences
How long before you let me go?
oooh...You set my soul alight oooh...You set my soul alight
(oooh...You set my soul alight)
Glacier's melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(oooh...You set my soul alight)
Glacier's melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
I thought I was a fool for no-one
Oh baby I'm a fool for you
--"Supermassive Black Hole," Muse (Full disclosure: I am a Twilight fan.)

And on their horses come charging by,
among them girls who have almost outgrown
this galloping of steeds; midway in passing
they look about, across, over, anywhere---
And now and then appears a snow-white elephant.

--"The Merry-Go-Round" by Rainer Maria Rilke (trans: Fleming & Lange)


Lessons from the Englischer Garten:

Saw a couple taking their wedding photos in the Garden. It was so cute I almost wanted to puke: they had a great photographer, obviously. The bride was wearing a strapless dress with an empire waist and an aquamarine sash, and the groom was wearing a black suit and tie, and they were reclining as if to picnic under the shade of this tree (with a blanket and wicker picnic basket), and were reading a book together, and an old-style black umbrella behind the bride. Then they got out old tennis/badmintion looking rackets and started playing badminton. It was so Edwardian, and now since I connect Edwardian with Twilight (see above), it melts my heart always. So I watched them and read my current book, Roots by Alex Haley.

I was walking in the Garden and heard these two girls (my age) talking to each other and I realized they were speaking English at the same time one of the girls SMILED at me in greeting. SMILED. I couldn't believe how flabbergasted I was. I haven't been greeted with a smile by a stranger since my America days.

The sun's come out at last after a week of fifty-degree rainy and overcast weather (though I would rather this weather than sticky gross humidity any day) in München. I am told there is an 80% chance of rain tomorrow. But this weekend's a homework weekend anyway, got some loose ends to sew up.

I'm heading into my last month here in München, and I've got some really mixed feelings. It reminds me of "Almost Famous," when Russell explains to the kid that "it's the circus. No one wants to leave. No one wants to say goodbye." I have a hard time thinking about leaving, even though I'm not even the biggest fan of German culture. But there's some things I really really like (even if I can't place my finger on it), and I don't want to leave those things behind. But as I thought in the Garden, I've had so many adventures here, many of which I wasn't planning for anyway. I've had some bad moments and some amazing, soul-searing great moments. I've learned so much. But there are plenty of adventures ahead of me, too, just around the corner.
Photo: A piece of paradise in Berlin, taken in the area of our hotel.

21 June 2009

The City of Fevered Dreams

Some days her shape in the doorway
Will speak to me
A bird's wing on the window
Sometimes I'll hear her when she's sleeping
Her fever dream
A language on her face
--"Fever Dream," by Iron & Wine

Und der Haifisch, der hat Zähne
und die trägt er im Gesicht
und Macheath, der hat ein Messer
doch das Messer sieht man nicht.

An 'nem schönen blauen Sonntag
liegt ein toter Mann am Strand
und ein Mensch geht um die Ecke
den man Mackie Messer nennt.

Und die minderjährige Witwe
deren Namen jeder weiß
wachte auf und war geschändet -
Mackie, welches war dein Preis?
Wachte auf und war geschändet -
Mackie, welches war dein Preis?
--"Die Moritat von Mackie Messer," by Bertolt Brecht in"Die Dreigroschen Oper" (The ThreePenny Opera), this song is now famous as "Mack the Knife." (I chose Brecht's version because it sounds most like the one I heard--it might actually BE the one I heard!)

"You can't describe Berlin, because it's always changing."


With JYM I had the great opportunity to travel with the Resident Director and other JYM students to that *other* German city: Berlin. We met at 9a.m. at the Hauptbahnhof and then hopped on the 9:21 ICE train to Berlin. It was a great travel, just chatting and talking to the other (five) students on the trip and avoiding homework as much as possible. We went up through Ingolstadt through Leipzig and then arrived at the gigantic, gleaming, six-story-high, modern Berlin Hauptbahnhof. This Hauptbahnof is prominent in the first couple of scenes of the recent film The International, and is quite glitzy, a Bahnhof of the future. Our Resident Director (HP) explained to us that, in the Wall Days, there were of course two separate train stations, so after the Vereinigung of Germany, they just decided to build a train station in the middle, but there aren't really any major establishments. So, whereas as in most train stations, you walk out and you are in the center of the city, here it's not so much the case. I could see Alexanderplatz to the south (famous for the Fernseherturm), but there was a lot that wasn't developed.

Interestingly enough, across the tiny road from the Bahnhof was a little platform set up for beach volleyball. Yep, you read it right--beach volleyball. We peeked in to see a couple of bronzed--well, maybe not bronzed---muscled women tossing around the fabled white ball in the middle of a parking lot. So it goes.

What's interesting about Berlin, HP went on to say, is that it is really a city with no center. This must add to the collective Berlin identity crisis. If you look at a map of Berlin, right in the physical center of the city is the Tiergarten--so essentially, there's nothing in the middle. Because of the Wall, there isn't really a center at all. All the "sights" are in some essence crowded around the four corners of the Tiergarten.


We walked from the Hauptbanhof to Hotel Bella (south of the Zoologicsher Garten) where we had a whole half-floor, living room, bathroom, and balcony to ourselves, with three rooms for the six of us. It was quite plush and very nice. We settled in and then headed to get a bite to eat at a Berlin-famous currywurst station. (HP speaks in Ger-englisch, which is amusing to hear. "Wir koennen ein bite to eat haben," or "ja, und wir muessten ein Babysitter (this is a German word) einstellen und den ganzen Abend mit boring people verbringen") We practically marched across Berlin, where we saw All The Sights, most of which don't really come to my mind right now.

Berlin--Berlin. Berlin's a fascinating city, it really is. It's screwed up in the best way. I saw a girl walking down an ordinary sidewalk licking her ice cream cone--this kinda grungy sidewalk under gray skies, and thought about how most of the time, I eat my ice cream on glitzy Leopoldstrasse in beautiful, green Munich and the contrast couldn't have been bigger. We stopped by a sidewalk sale with random Berlin stuff and T-shirts and also a whole rack of German army jackets (and one U.S. army jacket), and one girl bought one with the name "Schoenborn" (schoen=beautiful, and then the nice word "born") for 25 euro. He must have known he'd get a good price for that last name when he sold it to this store. They also had the hugest collection of second-hand leather jackets in very good condition.

All the shops we walked by weren't Munich schicki-micki at all, but really cool. Just selling the niftiest stuff, cool, not kitschy. DDR-influenced fashion: leather jacket top with a pastel floral skirt and Birkenstocks in the storefront windows, minimalist dresses, NEAT quality postcards (one had a brick wall with a closed rolling metal window gate thingy that said "URLAUB" --vacation--on it). A row of beautiful buildings, then an schrecklich grey building with "KAPITIALISM ZERSTOERT . . . . " (capitalism destroys--then listed several good things we like to have in our lives, like normality, freedom, etc). These people don't want to cooperate by making things all Stepford for the others. Definitely not a Munich trait.

We saw the Kaiser Wilheim Memorial and its opposing (protestant!! We're in the North now) modern church--really gorgeous, with most of the walls covered in blue stained glass pieces. When the sun shines--if that happens in Berlin--the whole building glows blue. On the way over, I noticed a Muslim woman and her male counterpart trying to do the old windshield-cleaning at stoplight gig. One man honked furiously her, rolled down the window and called her over, and shook his hand in anger as he exchanged some heated words. A man driving a BMW wagon talking to a female in the driver's seat tried to wave her off, didn't give her any money, then engaged the wash on the car to try to get the muck off.

I can certainly tell you that. Would. Not. Happen. in Munichland. I can't even *imagine* windshield cleaners here. The concept is unvorstellbar. Berlin had so many beggars and was a much poorer (but also cheaper!) city than Munich. Restaurants of every variety--Russian across from the Armenian, Chinese, Vietnamese--you name it, it's in Berlin. Immigrants of all kinds.

At a quarter to 8 we walked over to the Admiralpalast, where the German-language version of the Broadway hit The Producers was showing. Let me tell you, THAT was a weird experience: the Nazi eagle flying around in a little animation spiel, the famous long red flags (with a black pretzel where the swastika is--displaying it is, understandably, illegal here) hanging outside the building. We got into the beautiful (if more than half-empty, but I think it's been there for a couple of weeks) building, and the show commenced. I was intrigued to see what the Germans would find funny, and that part with the Hitler-saluting pigeons they seemed to really enjoy. However, when the "show" within the show started, the over-the-top swastika formation, the practically naked woman with the Nazi eagle on her crotch, the gigantic "SPRINGTIME FOR HITLER"--people laughed, but not so much. (Interesting article: "Can Hitler be a Hit? Musical 'The Producers' takes the stage in Berlin" agrees with me about the playwright character) I was suprised by the number of older people there. They probably aren't old enough to have been directly involved, but someone in their 70s would remember a little of it. The younger people seemed to find it funnier. . . . It's a great question of how one deals with the past and especially a history that has earned (rightfully) so much shame--Nazism was no fun, and Denazification was no fun, either.
After that we wandered around one of the major streets of Berlin, where several huge differences with Munich came to light (haha). There were about 2 sluttishly-dressed women with fanny packs per block, standing around and looking at the men walking around. We overheard one conversation in English, where the woman was saying, "We have a big bed, you can relax and do what you want." I could not believe it--prostitution! In Germany! It was certainly not the Germany I knew, the conservative Catholic Bavaria. My eyes were just popping wide open as I gazed at these women.

We walked into a really interesting art house/cultural center place. I realized I felt a little strange, and this was because I am totally unaccustomed to being in a *store* with *items for sale* when it is dark outside. Everything in Munich except for food-service places (cafes and restaurants and bars, not grocery stores) shuts down around 8 PM if not before (strict Catholic laws in Bavaria), but this is not so much the case in Berlin. I even saw VIDEO STORE in the area of our hotel that was open on Sunday from 12 to midnight!!!!!! I mean, a video store! Totally a non-essential. Wow.

Behind the cultural center they were doing this sculpture-making welding, with actual fire, ala Chris Stevens from Northern Exposure. It was a sculpture garden and continued with more tents and such selling art (bear in mind, this is after the play, at around 12 midnight). Plenty of people (of the sketchy and non-sketchy variety) were walking around to look at the art. Really weird.

After that, we went to Route 66 near our hotel (open until FOUR IN THE MORNING), an American diner. They had very good milkshakes. I ordered a chicken sandwich but they put egg in it. I personally find the presence of eggs in my sandwich so revolting it's kinda turned me off to eggs in general. I don't want two chicken products, at once, please. That's like eating a hamburger with milk. But the rest of the chicken, sans Ei, was good. It was a nice restaurant, really chill, great lighting--and American food.

We had a long conversation about different types of fries and their respective advantages and disadvantages for ketchup-dipping and Brandy said, "HP, can you tell we want to go back to America?" Of course, the other five JYM'ers were full-year students and in general seem really attached to Germany. I think most of them are anxious already to visit America for a bit and then come back for an extended period of time. I do wish I shared their attitudes, I've always admired those able to "go native" and immerse themselves in a completely foreign culture and begin to not only understand, but become "The Other," that concept we're always mangling about in our liberal arts university. It's probably largely a matter of choice and just throwing yourself into it. There are parts of Germany I really like (and I did like Berlin and its more American-style city--disadvantages include poverty--but I also like Munich, which is a great beautiful city but comes with its own disadvantages, like the city being shut down at night and on Sunday), but I'm someone who requires 7 days a week store openings (for most stores) and bright lights to be happy. I like going to the Starbucks in the Quarry Market and not worry about what the eff day it is, or what time it is, because that Starbucks is going to be open come hell or high water (being a 24 hour Starbucks). So, too will the Borders' Bookstore across the way, from a very generous 9 AM to 1o or 11PM, Monday through Sunday, and it will most definitely be open on all holidays. And that's just the opening times, I haven't even gotten started on how much I generally prefer American standards of interaction. If my choice was Munich and my Louisiana town, I'd choose Munich in a heartbeat, but thank God there are more cities in the U.S. more to my liking, on the San Antonio scale of things.

We totally crashed at the hotel until the next day. On Saturday we hit more sights, went sans HP and got utterly lost but found our way back again (go team go!), finally rendevoused with HP at a Flohmarkt, which had some interesting things and was actually a NEAT flea market with lots of great quality stuff. No prices--totally open to haggling. I kinda prefer to know the price beforehand, though, but still.

We saw even more sights which I can't exactly remember--Potsdamer Platz near the site of the Wall due to our getting off course--Humboldt University, Rotes Rathaus, a memorial to the victims of Nazisozialismus (weeping woman with her dead son), Brandenburg Tor (where we had a little picnic in full view of the Tor, and HP and some others posed with a Stormtrooper in front of the gate--like I said. Berlin's a weird place.). We ate lunch thanfully under the full cover of trees, since it was pouring down rain and like 55 degrees. Then, about 30 minutes later, the sun was shining and the skies were clear. We had decided to give our leftover food to a homeless man since we wouldn't need it for the duration of our time in Berlin, and we went to the bathroom in a lovely Kunstmuseum (I mean, nice, clean, state-of-the-art lobby). An immigrant family surrounded a couple of members of the group (in the lobby) and asked for food or money, so Sheeba gave the food to them, where they ate it in the lobby. See what I mean? A city of contradictions---this state of the art lobby juxtaposed with this immigrant family eating our leftover food on the steps inside the lobby. Just a strange city.

We had a Kaffeepause in a "little old lady cafe," the Opercafe adjacent to the Berlin Opera, which was gorgeous--4 euro slices of beautiful cakes, the BEST Eisschokolade that I've ever had (hands down), teas. We all ordered a drink and a Kuechen and sampled each other's cake. The cafe was this ornate, chandalier, pink-and-green, maple wood style cafe. And just earlier that day we had walked into this Yuppie, Starbucks-style coffeehouse, and later that day I'd walk into this cafe hole of dank Communist memoriabilla. The contrast couldn't be greater if you tried. Berlin is most certainly a city with an identity crisis, a city in constant flux, a city of so many transients (people consider themselves "Berliners" if they've lived there for 3 or 4 years and very few Berliners are natives) that it really can't have an identity because the face of Berlin is always changing.

We went off to see the Pergamon Museum, which was fascinating. After that, we split up, and I went off with two others to find a little cafe spotted during our walk. In the end, it turned out to be a slightly smelly and empty Communist-memorabilla cafe, so we decided to go ahead to the rendevous point, Depointe (sp?), which was this awesome cafe. Julie and Dan ordered the bier, which of course in Berlin is something that would cause the Southerners to foam at the mouth in anger: it comes in red and green, like a -tini or something, and is actually quite tasty. I ordered a nice Earl Grey tea and a tortellini in cheese and filled with spinich, which was very yummy. The weather was nice enough to sit outside in the 'backyard,' a very very tiny piece of a garden here in the big, bustling city.

After Abendessen we went ins Theater to see Die Dreigroschenoper (The Threepenny Opera) by Bertolt Brecht in HIS OWN HOME THEATER, the Berliner Ensemble. Talk about cool, cool, cool. The play was done in a Tim Burton style, which was totally up my alley. Mackie walked across the stage with his back to the audience as "Die Moritat von Mackie Messer" played and the criminals walked across the black canvas with circled-lights being illuminiated--I didn't describe it well, but I bought the program, so if you know me, ask and I will show you, because it is really cool. It is probably one of my Top 5 shows I've seen. Mackie walked with a walking stick dangling off his hand then finally turned around to reveal his Joker-white face and firey red hair. Just so cool. The play was done in a super-minimalist style, with these shelves of neon lights used for most of the setting, and sound-effects plus actor imitation for all the "gaps," such as doors opening, change jingling and such. Most of the main characters had their faces painted this pasty, Joker white color. . . . and the ending was actually "happy" but apparently it's a parody. Of course, it's Brecht, so the entire play is a critique of capitalism, but how awesome to hear this critique in Berlin, where capitalism and communism stood as actual physical divides?

(Note: Theater could benefit from installation of air-conditioning. I always think of theaters as dark, cold places. This is not so in Europe. Dan and I thought we were going to pass out and immediately ran out for air at intermission. I enquired with HP about why there is no AC in Europe and he said, "Wir brauchen es nicht." We don't need it? I think we most definitely do.)

After the gloriously done production, we posed for pictures with Brecht's statue outside and then headed back to the hotel. (Side note: Germans never give standing ovations, even at this amazing, signature Brecht piece in Brecht's theater. I don't know why this is. Would it be too much enthusiasm in this postmodern world?)

Sunday we brunchten at a little Italian cafe. Brunching is a popular Thing to Do in Berlin. I think you can probably brunch in Munich, but here almost every restaurant advertises its Sunday Brunch. After that, we left HP to go look at the famous multi-block Holocaust Memorial, taking a double-decker bus pretty close to the site. The site pretty much resembles a graveyard, and is actually a great experience. I walked through part of it, where the blocks get higher and higher and you can't see your way around as much anymore. It was a very well done memorial and I'm glad I got the opportunity to see it. Then, we hopped on the M41 to Hauptbahnhof where we arrived in perfect time to meet HP at our Gleis in Richtung Innsbruck. 6 1/2 hours later, our little group of 7 arrived in our quiet, still corner of Germany.

Photos: (1) Berlin t-shirts at a sidewalk sale while walking around Berlin (2), Sheba is ready to go at Muenchen Hauptbahnhof (3), German National Museum--"German History: We are one people," (motto of the Wiedervereinigung of Germany) (4), HP fights Stormtrooper in front of Brandenburg Tor--I told you Berlin was a weird place (5), DDR fashion (6) Alte Computers for sale? (7), Admiralpalast decks out for The Producers production (7), Justin & Britney are together again at Madam Tussaud's in Berlin--my pre-Kevin Federline knowledge of Britney is so much faded I forgot this match ever was.

10 June 2009

New York is a State of Mind

(Author's Note: still continuing on the updates. For my visit to Switzerland and my week with my parents, please see the post below this one. Update on Vienna and Sarah and Rebecca's visit yet to come. Please check back on Monday, 15 June.)

At this point in my journey I have roughly seven weeks left until I return to the United States. It's been an interesting time. I've had, to borrow someone else's expression about his study abroad experience, the best moments of my life so far here. Seriously---the top 5 best moments of my life, 4 of them have happened here. I've also had some of the worst moments. I would say that maybe 2 of my Top 5 Worst Moments happened here, too. It's been a FANTASTIC experience so far, it really has. I've grown so much through this---in an artificial setting like school, I'm not sure that I would have faced as many realities as I have here in Deutschland.

While I was in Switzerland with my parents, my mother made an off-hand remark about one of my favorite TV shows, described as a "fish out of water" by The Wall Street Journal, Northern Exposure, and about Dr. Joel Fleischman's longing for New York City as he's stranded in Cicely, paying off his debt to the state of Alaska. It made me think about how one is so accustomed to a culture with which one clicks, for some reason. At the end, Maggie tells Joel that she'd asked herself, "If Fleischman asks me to go back to New York with him, will I go?" But, as she tells Joel, New York is his home, and not hers. (So ends the love story, the relationship that never was.) The last scene is amazing--Joel's on the Staten Island ferry, and there's a sense of homecoming, but also the sense that he's changed, and Forever Nightshade Mary plays as Joel looks out over the skyline and Maggie flips over his postcard which reads simply but profoundly, "New York is a state of mind." I had thought once I related to Joel, in a "aw, how cute, he wants to go back to New York" way, but now I get it to a degree that I didn't before. To him, New York is the center of his soul, where everything runs as he expects it run--New York understands him, he understands New York.

I relate to that now. Today I had a moment of wonder in Karstadt when I saw shelves of jewelry items branded with "NOT BEING SOLD BECAUSE OF INVENTORY." In the U.S., that's sacreligious--that's why you close business or do inventory after hours, because in opening hours the goal is actually to, ahem, make sales. The logic goes against mine. It frustrated me so much at first, but now I'm reaching a nice halfway point. Earlier it seemed so much of a grim, concrete reality: that I was locked into this place with strange people and a strange language (hahah, you think you're studying abroad and you realize you've sent yourself to Mars), a foreign culture, juggling bagging your own things and paying at the same time as the second person's items comes crashing upon your things, having to pay for everything in a roundabout way, having trouble being understood and understanding, nothing being open on holidays or Sundays, better buy everything you need before 4PM Saturday---this was the grim reality through with I trudged.

But now, at the halfway point, I smile at the German people and their quirks, I'm used to not understanding and/or not being understood, I can skillfully bag my things (and remember to bring my own plastic bags, as here they cost euros) and pay at the same time without irritating all of the grocery store shoppers, and I have just gotten used to some of the more complex things that I've come to see as part of the Germans' reality until they decide to change it, but not part of my reality. The brick walls I run up against are familiar now, so familiar they're harmless. The awareness that my time is finite (which did NOT feel finite before) has made me more understanding, more tolerant, and more aware of what the European experience has done for me, and has actually made me paradoxically wish I could stay longer, like a quote from Lolita that I love: "let her stay, let her stay. . ." I see how much I've changed in the past months and wonder what change would lay ahead if I stayed.

I've met so many fascinating people, I've done so many fascinating things, and I've realized that this is a singular experience in my life. I've realized what it's done for me, but I know America and 24-hour Starbucks and Taco Taco and Borders' open late into the night seven days a week, is back there somewhere, waiting for when I'm done, and that's a comforting thought. And New York is, after all, a state of mind.

I leave you with a quote that is very meaningful to me at this moment, from the same fabulous episode:

"Maggie: I used to think of all the billions of people in the world, and of all those people, how was I going to meet the right ones? The right ones to be my friends, the right one to be my husband. Now I just believe you meet the people you're supposed to meet."

04 June 2009

"Das isch Züri," or, Utopia Mapped



Early today as I watched while the skyline was shaking, I heard a rumbling
Early today the mechanical city was waking
And I ran out stumbling, mumbling
Out through the laughter of children and dogs
Did you see our brother
He was here the other day
But he only came to say that he can't breathe here
Did you see his lady, she was reaching for his hand
Just as if to tell her man that she can't either
They're bound to go
And the sun may find me running after them, seeing something far away
We won't be back


--"From Silver Lake," Jackson Browne


On Sunday morning, the day of Kim's departure, I got up early to meet my train to head off to Zürich and meet my parents there. It was altogether quite simple: U-Bahn to Marienplatz, S-Bahn to Hauptbahnhof (2 stops), walk up to my train, presto, easy. The train trip was about 5 hours, which was on the longish side, but altogether much more comfortable than airplane travel. It was beautiful, we went through all sorts of small little towns. I remarked on a little grocery store in a tiny town in the mountains called, in German, the Oasis, with a little painting of a lush paradise in the desert. I loved the juxtaposition there. The train also went past the Bodensee, which is a HUGE. HUGE. lake at the foot of Lindau, where we made one of our stops.


I arrived just before noon in the pretty and charming old Zurich Hauptbahnhof, where I met my father. Together we cabbed back to the hotel, which marked the first time I had been in an automobile in 10 weeks: it did seem a bit unfamiliar. I was surprised how much in Zurich was closed on Sunday, even many cafes and restaurants were closed (about half, or a little less than that, I would say). In Munich, all the shops are closed, but you can at least eat at a cafe or restaurant. Zurich is a beautiful city, though, situated just on the lovely Zurichsee in the mountains, and everyone seems to speak at least three languages. You will know of course, that the Swiss have their own little brand of German, Swiss-German, which is just plain weird. See my title of this post; this is actually an ad in Switzerland where they've abandoned the "t" and added a "ch" for the "ist" (is).


I was very interested to scope out the differences between the Swiss and the Germans, or, more specifically, the Munichners and the Zurichers. Zurich is much, much smaller than Munich, though the people were more outgoing and more inclined to kindness to "outsiders" than I feel would be the case in a German town of the same size. (Of course, Zurich is a combination of many influences, so maybe it's not quite fair to make a comparsion, since there can't ever really be a German town "like" Zurich.) I was at the hotel buffet pouring some orange juice and the waitress needed to get in my area, so she just touched me on the back to let me know she was there. In Germany, you would be greeted by a very loud and harsh "VORSICHT!" while they would mutter "youstupididiot" under their breath. Also, the waiters we had at various restaurants (not all expensive--well, not by Zurich standards, anyway--everything in Zurich is teuer, teuer, teuer, which would depress me if I lived there and wasn't a millionaire) were all just more open. I had asked one server about the meaning of a flag, and she went off to ask another server to get the right answer, and was just in general more open than I felt I have encountered in Deutschland. More neighborly? Perhaps is the right word. Here people are much more inclined to erect fences than to share. But, I'm not really sure which influences are responsible, and Zurich could be such an European singuarlity that it can't be replicated nor fairly compared to other European cities.

We had dinner with two of my mother's colleagues, who have both lived in Switzlerand for about 5 years. One has a gorgeous Golden Retriever dog. The dog has a tram card! I saw it with my own eyes. The dog comes to work, since apparently it is illegal in Switzerland to leave your dog alone for more than 4 hours. Your neighbors will report you. Wow, talk about government intervention. You cannot buy a house in Zermatt unless you list your primary residence there, and it's very hard for non-Swiss citizens to break in the little club there, since they want to let Swissies enjoy this mountain paradise. Things are done differently here. I wonder what the Swiss 6 o'clock news is like: "A dog was lost today near the river, however a Loyal Swiss Neighbor helped the owner recover it. It had a hurt paw and was taken to the vet for immediate treatment."

After spending about 2 days in Zurich, we left mit dem Auto out of Switzerland and into Liechtenstein, which was really neat! Liechtenstein is just across a river from Switzerland and accepts the Swiss currency as well as the Liechtenstein franc. Famous as a tax evasion place, Liechtenstein has more registered companies than citizens. Apparently, a host of German citizens had been stashing away some cash here in this quiet valley, and a disgruntled employee of a Liechtenstein bank offered to sell the German government names of German citizens who had accounts in Leichtenstein, and the German government took the bait. (Spiegel Article on the "2008 Liechtenstein Affair" ) The source was paid 5 million euros for this information. I personally feel uneasy about a *government* would negotiate with someone who was violating confidence laws. How would the German government feel about an employee of Deutsche Bank selling out names of clients to a foreign power? I know you have to work with unsavory individuals sometimes to get more unsavory ones, but no one's life was being threatened here. Reading the Spiegel article is interesting though--there's very much the sense that those who have committed tax evasion are "ignoring the responsibility they have to the common good," as the article says. Hahhahahaa, I dare you to find that quote in a major American news publication. Bei uns this concept does not exist. So that's a cultural difference for you.

We also drove through the beautiful mountains of Austria, Innsbruck, and up through Southern Germany, where it began to RAIN. LIKE. NO. TOMORROW. We had thought we'd evade this rain by the time we got to Munich, as Munich is far enough north of the Alps not to get that crazy weather, but we were wrong. It was the end of May, and it was cold and wet. Thunderstorms like that may be the du jour in Lousiana, but not in this town. I do love rain and storms. . . . as I've spent less and less time in Louisiana I become more and more shocked by their occurence. It'll always be a gift I take from the Bayou State, the upbringing I had in times of storms and lightening.

I spent the following week with my parents. We did the usual, restaurants and so forth and also went to the very impressive Deutsches Museum which is a museum of science and technology. There were whole ships there, whole aircrafts, exhibition on the Wright Brothers, history of publishing, glass blowing, photography, physics, chemistry, space--impressive stuff, well done, and not boring at all. It was huge, I kept getting lost. I had an ermäßigung for being a Studentin so it was only 3 euros (8,50 euro regular admission) Sweet. Definitely going back. My father remarked about the technical detail of this, how many jet engines there were. Germans are very interested in the fine details--they want to know how things work = Siemens, BMW, etc.

We also went to Augsburg to see the Fuggerei, which was neat. Very cool settlement; I can't believe it's been there that long!

Next up: Two days later I go to Vienna, Austria, to reunite with two of my Trinity friends!

Photo: view from Restaurant Seerose out to the Zürichsee.

16 April 2009

Collective Subconscious & Cultural Observations



The time has come for more cultural observations. Being in England sparked some new trains of thought. It's a strange thing to be American, studying abroad in Germany, but vacationing in an almost-American-culture like England.

The following are not ranked in any particular order, and bear in mind, they are only my experiences. We are a part of all that we have met. . . .

(1) The reason I titled my last post "Where the Collective Subconscious Dreams in English" is because I was struck so much by the plethora of advertisments all over London for theaters, movies, books, etc. I suppose I see this to some degree in Munich, but not to the extent I saw it in London. With the gray weather always overhead, they must dream...

(2) I have seen dogs pee in U-Bahn stations. For some reason, leashing is not that popular here in Munich. It bothers me a little. I will say that the dogs are very well-trained, and ignore pretty much everyone except for their owner, but I'm afraid they're going to start attacking small children and I will be forced by good conscience to intervene.

(4) Transportation. London's Tube station seems to have been built for a much smaller population than it has at present. By contrast, the U-Bahn system is quite roomy and comfortable, especially if you, like me, have claustrophobic tendencies. Also, cycling doesn't seem to be that common in London, due to small streets, no doubt. There exist parts of Munich where one can almost certainly be killed by a cyclist. Not owning a Fahrrad myself, I can't comment as to their experience, and I imagine they feel quite vulnerable and that vulnerability is the cause of their bitterness toward the non-cycling world--but they are very frightening. Step one toe into their zone and they will screech at you like harpies.

(5) One becomes very desensitized to sexuality over here on the Continent. I have to say, my body image has never been so good. For one, you have to walk an inordinate amount. Not having a car, you are your own driver, passenger, holder of drinks and food, and trunk/sherpa. This keeps you in tip-top form, if it doesn't leave you with bruised feet. Then, nudity is regarded almost as an art form here, and there just comes a time when you've seen enough naked men in the Englischer Garten that it just ceases to faze you so much.

(6) It's much easier to fit into the London scene clothes-wise. In London, anything goes. Europeans tend to dress up much, much more. Grown ones, anyway. Teenagers seem obsessed with wearing Converse All-Stars; I have never seen so many of these shoes in my life. College students wear an Adidas-like court shoe, then grown-ups wear nice shoes all the time. (As a former worker in the footwear industry, I'm sensitive to these things.)

(7) When we were in London on Friday going toward Westminister Abbey, there was a huge protest opposite Westminister Abbey. Sarah, Ashlee, and Rebecca were about to cross the street against the light, which is a huge no-no in Munich. I was a bit worried because there were policemen crossing against us, and I didn't want to be ticketed for jaywalking. Then I realized that there was a huge, five-day hunger strike / protest going on not 20 yards away, and the police were probably much more concerned about that than about my potential jaywalking. Oddly, a feeling of relief went through me. I no longer felt like potential line-crosser criminal. Munich's crime rate is pathetically low--as a result, this means that every tiny little infraction becomes magnified 10,000X. I have seen a policeman ticketing a lady with her little 20's style basket-and-bicycle. Automobiles attempting to cross into pedestrian zones while their light is green don't get shouts like they would in NYC, they are instead subjected to the Societal Shaming Glare of Death.

(8) I went into WHSmith Books at Heathrow to seize my last opportunity to browse through English-language books. I adore being in bookstores in general, but it's frustrating when I'm at Hugendubel and the books could be in Chinese for all the good it does me. (Side note: at Hugendubel, they make huge reading areas in the middle, and the cushions snake alongside the center in a somewhat-circular like fashion. This seems to recreate the experience of being on the U-Bahn / tram / bus. Why on earth would anyone do that? Maybe it's to prevent people from stuffing books into their bags in dark corners, but geez. This is a big city, and people are always surrounded by other people all the time--at work, going to / from work, at play, etc. Why can't they just make nice cosy corners like we do in the U.S. ?) So I was browsing around (and the two British-Indian women working there were chatting about Henry VIII and his wives--I love England) and saw Moby Dick by Herman Meville. In high school, I had attempted to read this book, but had gotten bored with it. But I always believe sometimes one isn't ready to read a book until one's had the experience to appreciate it. I realized that now I was ready, since I had enough distance from America to appreciate it as a culture on its own.

(9) I love speaking English. There's nothing like fluency, the information being seamlessly transmitted from aural / visual stimuli to instant understanding. There's this sign in Munich, called "ueber die man spricht. . ." and it roughly translates to "what people are talking about" but it literally translates to "about the things one speaks" which BOTHERS me to no end. I hate seeing it. I adore being in an Anglophone enviroment. I was at the platform in Marienplatz yesterday, and saw a group of three men only a little ways from me being introduced to each other, and thought I heard American English. They were laughing quite jovially and smiling, and I was like, "oh, yeah, they're Americans." Closer analysis confirmed my guess.

I do see why we Americans get the "You're all just like a big, happy dog" rap: we have a habit of not seeming to take anything too seriously--but I think, in fairness to us, that we do--whereas the Europeans take everything seriously. My average rate of smiling has gone down by 120%. I don't smile at baristas, students in the hall, no one. I occasionally copy the Europeans and will allow small children to elicit a tiny, tiny, no-teeth, smile. They just don't. San Antonio's a big city, but people smile there all the time, because it's just a friendly, open city. Europeans tend to view this as "fake" and "exhausting." It's interesting. No perspective is really wrong, just different. But seeing those guys, having just met, laughing like they'd been friends for years, was quite cheering. Fake? Or just projecting the reality that they hope will come?

(1o) Convenience. So few stores take credit cards, or even debit cards. Mammon is God. Why can't you buy your books at the cafe in Hugendubel? Noooo, that would interfere with The System, which mandates, like so many European things, that you stand in line with a huge group of people and Wait Your Turn.

"My country is all I know. . . .And the river opens for the righteous, and the river opens for the righteous." --Jackson Browne & Steven Van Zandt "I Am a Patriot"