03 August 2009

Heimkehr


"You can't go back home to your family-- to a young man's dream of fame and glory,to the country cottage away from strife and conflict, to the father you have lost, to all the old forms and systems of things which seems everlasting but are changing all the time." -- Thomas Wolfe, "You Can't Go Home Again"

Thank you, Ms. Monroe, for those years of quotation tests. Some of them are actually applicable to life.

Return is a strange thing. I could wax on about the theme of homecoming, of Heimkehr, of return in an Odyssean sense--but I shan't.

Coming back to the United States, entering at the Houston airport was a bit startling for me. I was shocked at the multiculturalism everywhere. The TV played a program about How to Go Through Customs and there were races of every stripe on the program, the same with the customs officers and the baggage control officers. At the end of the program, these officers came on, and in different languages, said, "Welcome to the United States." And then the program panned out to all the small clips and said, "WELCOME TO THE UNITED STATES." What a bastard country this is, I thought. The words I said once to a fellow intern rang even more true now: "We're a country of mutts and mixed-breeds." We are. It is a country, on the whole, completely without any sense of style and order that Europe has. One would never think such a bastard, chaotic, style-less culture would be the world's most desirable place to live. But it is. And that's what's amazing about America. It is a country without preconceptions, without Ordnung, with only a loose tie to the past, it grasps greedily at the future and what tomorrow brings. A child born on American soil is American, regardless of the nationality of his or her parents, regardless of the language spoken at home. Because America isn't about concepts handed down from generation to generation, nor is it about race, nor language. America simply a land, soil in which possibility can grow, a workshop--as crazy and messed up as it is--a workshop for dreams.

This study abroad experience has been so eye-opening for me. I can't even begin to say. As my plane touched down in my hometown, I thought to myself: "That was it. That was my study abroad experience, and now it's over." But I quickly chided myself: That was one adventure, and there are many, many more adventures to come.

I'm posting a photo of Greenland with this post, simply because I felt the old last-walk-through-the-Englischer-Gartens wouldn't do. We flew over Greenland (yeah.... kinda far north) and down through Canada and near Hibbing, Minn. (birthplace of Robert Zimmerman). I was entranced by Greenland--this country where I had learned, "Iceland is nice and Greenland is full of ice" (this is very true). It actually existed. One could visit it, even.

My father once brought home a big, stiff-child-friendly map called "It's a Big, Big, World." I date it by telling you that Russia is named the U.S.S.R. I'm pulling it out and flipping through it now. Neuschwanstein Castle and a beer stein are painted over Bayern, a music note, mountains and sunglasses over Austria, gold bars in Switzerland. This colorful map brought me much delight as a child (and probably explains a lot about me now).

The opening pages read: "Have you ever thought about how big our world is, and how much there is to discover?"

But, my friends, this fun map for children has an essential truth: It's a big, big world. There's so much to say, I couldn't say it all in a thousand posts, so the silence shall have to suffice as gravity enough. I smile at you in the silence, and hope you and I can realize this endless world of wonder and opportunity.
Maybe a moonbeam, just a starbright, forever nightshade mary goodnight -Latin Playboys

27 July 2009

When all is said and done



Yesterday I had a wonderful afternoon with a German friend bumming around Olympiapark. The last two days have been beautiful weather. I wanted to go up Olympiaturm, the Olympic tower, and take one last good look at the Alps--the weather was perfect for it, not a cloud in the sky, clear horizon.

It's been a weekend of Abschiedpartys (farewell parties) and packing--insane amounts of packing. I'm quite proud of myself. I need to do several loads of laundry and dutifully was there when the Getränksverkauf was open so that I could buy my Waschenmarken--otherwise I would have to wait until tomorrow evening, and that wouldn't be good. I fly out Thursday in the Insane Hours of the Morning and Wednesday is my Wrapping Things Up Day.

I'm quite shocked how much Germany has grown on me. Living in an essentially socialist society has been very enlightening for me. I wouldn't ever prefer it to the rough-and-tumble unchecked individualism of the United States, I don't think, but I can see how it appeals. (Here is a very interesting article that appeared in The New York Times Magazine which does a good job of explaining a European socialist country, and has remarkable similiarites to what I have observed here in München. Going Dutch: How I Learned to Love the European Welfare State) People here would never go so far as American niceness, but they do care about each other to some degree, as long as it does not interfere with the lives of others. Though Germany, in my opinion, lacks what I would call universal standard handicapped access, there is never a lack of hands to pull a person in a wheelchair over the steps into a store, to open a door for a woman on crutches, to call the ambulance when someone needs it. It is hardwired into small children (I have seen this collective cultural training in action) to always mind that your own things never interfere with someone else's business. When I think of something really American that would rise the collective German ire, I think of things like huge automobiles and double parking--Americans are not very respectful of another's literal and metaphorical space--probably because we have had the luxury of not having to be. But Germans are very aware where that line between You and Me is and everyone does what they can to preserve the sanctity of that line.

But socialism, for all its wonders, continuously hinges on a lot of factors that don't always coordinate nicely together: payers-in and payers-out of the system. Germany, for all its Kindergeld (the monies new parents receive per child from the government) efforts, is still growing older, and every year 100,000 immigrants come into the country. Socialism also makes what I think can be a disasterous mistake of assuming homogeneity, and can make it very difficult for outsiders to integrate into the culture and the system. These thoughts aren't clear at all, but I feel like in America it's way easier for foreigners to integrate, partly because we aren't assuming that we're all playing by the same rules that socialism demands.

I'm packing up (moving countries is no easy feat), and the room is slowly gaining some sense of Ordnung. Tomorrow will be my last full day in Germany, and I will get up at an Ungodly Hour on Thursday to catch my 7AM flight to Paris, Paris--Houston, Houston--my hometown. In Paris I will be subjected to the mandatory taking alllll my liquids out, practically undressing, and taking my laptop out and taking my shoes off while clutching to my passport and boarding pass for dear life, or, the ritual we call "Security." Oh, so it goes.

Today the JYM group flight left, taking a good chunk of the students with them. I'm trying to keep my spirits up. I'm ready to go back, I've had this adventure and feel even more emboldened to go on to new ones (after navigating daily life in a second language, everything else pales in comparsion! No more having to look up vocabularly words and explain in cumbersome, 7-year-old German what you're after). I've had quite a few San Antonio deja-vu moments, and it shocks me to think I will return to Trinity. But I'm also sad and sentimental about the time here. I think back to my arrival and I realize I didn't even know what I was in for at all, and I'm amazed how well I did, and that I did this at all.

Thanks for all your generous love and thanks for all the fun
Neither you nor I are to blame, when all is said and done
. --ABBA

Photo: Lion of Bavaria holding shield which you rub for luck (glück), Odeonsplatz.

22 July 2009

The Long Goodbye, Part II

So last weekend I had several fun things to do--celebrating the city and our friendships at night, studying by day. On Friday we went out to the Cafe Glockenspiel which is situated on the sixth floor of a building across from the famous Altes Rathaus with its Glockenspiel. First we had drinks (Sheba had a Pina Colada in the coolest looking cup I have ever seen, shaped like a Tiki face) over in the bar side, then we had dessert in the fancy part overlooking Marienplatz. It was a lovely evening shared with some great friends, and looking out over Marienplatz, the evening and then the rain falling (cooling off what had been quite a hot day).

On Satuday night, I saw Harry Potter und der Halbblutprinz. Yes, dubbed in German. I haven't seen a dubbed movie since Pippi Longstocking, and, ahem, that was quite a while ago. I found it a tiny bit distracting but they did a good job keeping the audio match pace with the scene, and the voices were very, very much like the orginial actors' voices. And then, of course, another language makes it possible to slip in other jokes, for example:

Ron's Girlfriend rushes in to the hospital where Ron is lying, to see Hermione by his side.
RG: "Ich bin seine Freundin!"
Hermione: "Ich bin seine . . . beste Freundin!"

No idea what the original English is, but it's funny because in German, there is no distinction between "friend" and "girl/boyfriend". When I say "Mein Freund" (my "male" friend) and I am female, it sounds like I am talking about my boyfriend. I have to go out of the way to indicate that he is not my boyfriend and address him as "Ein Freund von mir" (a "male" friend of mine). So here, Ron's Girlfriend says "I'm his (girl)friend!" and Hermione says, "I'm his best (girl)friend."

I'm not sure why English only has this problem with males discussing female friends. I would never address my platonic male friends as "my boy friends" but "my guy friend said," etc. But a guy might have to say "a girl friend of mine..." if he wants to indicate straight-off that she's female. But if he said "my girlfriend" it would definitely sound like he was discussing a romantic relationship, whereas I am going to say "my guy friend" ("male friend" sounding a bit too Kinseyian for my taste), and it's clear it's platonic.

Also, they sell beer and wine in theaters here. Europe, huh?

On Sunday I ended up walking around a street festival on huge Leopoldstrasse for about an hour--pedestrian traffic only for a weekend!--which was wonderful. It also allowed the unprecedented view of seeing mustard-yellow Theaterinkirche through the Siegestor. I'll miss that about Europe--just wandering in and out of daily life, wandering into a festival with no intention of ever having seen it in the first place . . .

The rest of the week was study, study, study time.

After the classes came to a very good end, I began packing up. Now I am looking at the utter chaos that is my room. JYM has a great program where you can sell boxes to future program students--useful things that you don't necessarily want to take back with you, plates, coffee machines, laundry hampers, etc. So I am in the process of sorting out my belongings. I have to get the boxes ready for the next student (and haul them over to JYM sometime), and pack up my own boxes to be sent back to the United States (I am an impulsive book buyer, and also wanted to make it easy on my schlepping stuff back by sending some bulky sweaters, etc. back with the books.), and yeah, then of course through all of this there's bags and bags of trash and recycling.

I also have to get my room to German Standards of Cleanliness sometime, too, or, as Hans Peter said, they will send a 'Cleaning Team', "die so viel Geld verdient, wie ein lawyer in Manhattan."

Yesterday, I had intended to get off at Alte Heide and go shopping at Edeka for groceries, but I was so distracted I missed the stop and got off at Nordfriedhof, a stop too far. So I decided just to walk through Nordfriedhof, the city cemetery. I'm in love with it, really. It's so calm and quiet and such a great place to think. It runs parallel to Ungerstrasse (five months here and I can never spell it with 100% certainity) so I just walked through it on my way to Alte Heide.

Last night we had this huge, never-ending party at JYM. Almost all of us dressed up in Tracht and we attended a little ceremony in JYM, where the major prizes were given out, and the yearbooks distrubuted (which are GREAT! and have a great theme--Jugendstil).



HP gave a wonderful speech, as always. He quoted a student on his view of the experience. I'm afraid I'm going to have to paraphrase here. "What will I tell people about my study abroad experience? The nights spent in Pot drinking glass after glass of beer? The time I got myself completely lost in the Hauptgebäude? What will they verstehen? What will I tell them? I will probably tell them gar nichts."

After that, we went to dinner in Dietlindenstrasse, at a Bierhalle with amazing, upscale food (weird, huh?) which we had pre-ordered. I had amazing carrot soup, a grilled chicken salad--just delicious. And I ordered my first Maß. Of course, I was hardly able to finish it at all (I had to have several friends help me, who had no problem polishing off their own, whereas I had barely gotten down a quarter), but hey, I felt very authentic in my dirndl and with my bier.

After that, we had an after-party in the Rationaltheater in Münchner Freiheit, which is owned by a friend of HP's and is a cool place. I wish we had had the run of the place to ourselves, because I kept having to make sure that someone was watching after my belongings while I went to dance/talk to other people, etc, since there were a couple of random people coming in. But anyway, it was still great fun, and one of our number provided us with excellent music. I imagine that a group of dirndl- and lederhosen-clad American youths jumping up and down and yelling out the chorus of "SWEET HOME ALABAMAAAA, WHERE THE SKIES ARE SO BLUE, SWEET HOME ALABAMA, I'M COMING HOME TO YOU" must look pretty funny. The Rationaltheater was a good scene, though, and a good choice by the program. Took a while for the party to warm up but I think everyone had a good time, and some of us had to say our goodbyes, due to leaving over the weekend or on Monday.

As I looked out over the group from my comfty chair, I was torn by several conflicting emotions. How odd that we had all come together for this singular purpose and were now being scattered to the four winds again, what did it all mean? Having to say goodbye--an old hat of which I am quite weary. But sometimes things aren't as meaningful without the knowledge that there is an end. . . . Again, I thought about Russell in Almost Famous: "This is the circus, everyone's trying not to go home. No one wants to say goodbye." And I don't mean to diminish the value of this experience by comparing it to a circus or the drugs-and-alcohol fueled rock-and-roll scene, but what I suppose is meant by "circus" is the strangeness of our collective purpose, how inorganic for a bunch of American students from all corners of the country to be gathered in this one time and place in Europe for this one purpose. I was a bit sad.

On the other hand, when I went to dance, I was just smiling ear-to-ear, looking at my comrades and shouting to each other with the chorus: "DON'T NEED MONEY, DON'T TAKE FAME, DON'T NEED NO CREDIT CARD TO RIDE THIS TRAIN!" Standing there dancing, being twirled by several of my guy friends, looking at each other and grinning like mad fools we are in our youth--I was just so happy I had met these people at all, happy to be young, alive, and well, full of energy, discovering the world, having our hearts broken and our ideas changed but forging ahead regardless, to have had these amazing experiences, bizarre and weird as it is, that I had begun to discover myself --oh so happily caught in the smoky, dizzy, and heady fury of the Jugendstil.
Photos: (1) View of Altes Rathaus and Theaterinstrasse from Cafe Glockenspiel as night falls (2), Pole vaulting at the Street Fair on Leopoldstrasse (3), The sun shines over the graves in Nordfriedhof (4), The winds of change are ushering me homeward (5), The boundless sky over Nordfriedhof.

17 July 2009

Untitled


People come and go, suprising me with their various entrances and exits, things come to pass or do not come to pass, but at the end of the day, it's me. . . . a good Jackson Browne song playing in the background to carry my spirits. . . and the road.


“Our battered suitcases were piled on the sidewalk again; we had longer ways to go. But no matter, the road is life." --Jack Kerouac
Oh, to dance beneath the diamond sky with one hand waving free. . . .

16 July 2009

The Long Goodbye


Today I had my last day at my internship, where I've been working three afternoons a week for 10 weeks, since mid-May. We cracked open a bottle of white wine (only in Europe!), had some cherries, the FairTrade chocolate that I had bought as a present for the office (with some FT coffee and tea) and sat outside and celebrated, since the other interns are ending their Praktikum soon as well.

So I walked out today and took a last look around at Milbertshofen, knowing it was the first of many goodbyes I'll be making. In exactly two weeks from now (and maybe 2 hours), I'll be at the Houston airport again, stepping foot on American soil for the first time in five months and probably being culture-shocked out the wazoo. I'm hardly fluent in German, but today a lady stopped by the office to discuss a planned radio program with the other interns and I understood the entire discussion without translating in my head. Even above, when I wrote "Fair Trade chocolate, tea, coffee," I have to stop myself from writing "Schokolade, Tee, Kaffee." I have the hardest time discussing some German things with my mother without sounding like an idiot. My discussions with JYM students, mostly auf Englisch (see? not intended), have become a weird Mischung of English and German. I wrote my friend once on Skype: "Oh, it's egal to you?" The expression: "Mir egal," or "Es ist mir egal," means something like, "It's the same to me/I don't have a preference/I don't care." I heard another JYMer say, "I would have Lust auf that," from the "haben Lust auf" (would like to do, have a desire to do/have etc). I shared this with my German professor at JYM and she nearly died laughing.

Your Jackson Browne quote of the day:
I have prayed for America
I was made for America
Her shining dream plays in my mind
--Jackson Browne, For America (Please note this is one of JB's "I'm being patriotic by dissenting, because I love America so much" songs. It isn't traditionally patriotic, so if you are offended by that, please save your blood pressure.) Interestingly enough, this was performed at the Rockpalast in Berlin in the 80s. I love what he says: "This song is called 'For America', and it's for you, too."
Photo: Beautiful flowers in a lovely Englischer Garten sunset---just a stone's throw away from my apartment in StuSta, taken a couple of months ago.

09 July 2009

you don't need a weatherman to know which way the wind blows

20 Life Lessons I've Learned Here, in no particular order:

(1) Always keep your umbrella with you. Weather changes, you know, and it is a far far better thing to have a spare umbrella than to be wet down to your socks. Don't be that sad dripping person.
(2) Be careful what you wish for, you might get it. And then you are here with this New Thing you have never had before, and invariably operational problems will arise, and you will be up a Creek Without a Paddle, because you have no procedures for handling the operational problems. Advantage: very good for you, learn to problem-solve, grow older. Disadvantage: messy, mind-racking, other people think you are an idiot.
(3) Everyone comes with Some Assembly Required.
(4) You meet interesting people everywhere, you just have to keep a weather eye out for them and ask, ask, ask, ask questions. "I met a lot of interesting people over here. Hell, I even encountered myself." --James Baldwin
(5) Dr. Kutchen's saying "If it wasn't hard, it wouldn't be worth doing" to our newly-challenged freshman Humanities course has much value in it and bears repeating. Hard things are hard for a reason. They're also very rewarding. If you want something, don't let anything stop you.
(6) I've stretched my boundaries, in many senses. This doesn't mean abandoning your boundaries, just stretching them, in a way that is beneficial for your collection of the Human Experience or, What are We Doing Here Anyway?
(7) I love the people who keep up with me from Texas. Knowing that some of my relationships back home are actually going to be stronger, not weaker, when I get back to Never-Never Land, because of people who always checked in on me and listened to me whine, is really comforting and makes me less nervous to leave. If anyone has friends out there who are studying abroad, I encourage you to try to keep in contact with them, even if they are "out of sight, out of mind." It makes a difference to them--believe me.
(8) Three musicians I love more since coming over here: Jackson Browne, Bob Dylan, and Linkin Park. Bob Dylan is the musician for loners, which, hah, part of study abroad really is about.
(9) New things are only scary for a short period of time. Humans consistently overestimate how long it will take them to adapt to change. Repetition is the mother of integrating change into normality.
(10) Living alone in foreign country? Means = being nervous and afraid, and having to do it anyway, because ain't nobody gonna help you, you alone, and This Problem Needs Solving. And You are the only one who will solve it. hahahaha, I can't believe I thought some stuff in the U.S. was hard.
(12) I'll definitely seek out more challenges in the U.S. now, I feel much less afraid and more aware of what challenges can do for me as a person. Kinda like lifting weights. I'm bolder and a little more fearless.
(13) You think you are studying abroad (cue! fun! streamers! party hats!) , and you wake up one day to realize you sent yourself to Mars and actually wanted this.
(14) America's a weird place. As one German (who had traveled in America due to American girlfriend) said, "America's like a theme park. Everything's really nice but there's not much meaning behind it." I adore my countrymen, but this is true. Europeans read philosophy and think about the meaningless of life. Americans read self-help and think about how to Make Tomorrow Better, Lose Weight, Quit Smoking, Improve Their Relationship with their Parents, Children, and Small Animals! They are much more positive, though, and I'm just too attached to Happy Endings to buy the European scheme.
(15) The saddest thing about living in another culture is finding things you like about it and realizing those things are almost inherently incompatible with the things you like about your home culture.
(16) You can cross continents, but the sea won't shake off your ghosts. Only you can do that.
(17) It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. It's better to have formed those meaningful friendships, fleeting as they may seem, because you just never know. I will always, always remember the people I have met here. And I believe that I'll carry the memories and a part of them with me wherever I go, nestled right under my ribcage in my heart.
(18) Don't panic.
(19) Wherever you go, there you are. It's just you at the end of the day.
(20) Home is where you want it to be, and you can have a home with "rooms" all over the planet.

"But to me Air sounds modern and childless and single, compared to say, Dylan, who sounds old and married and burdened--who sounds like home. If Air are Conan, then Dylan is the greengrocers. Mushrooms, lettuce, and tomato, home to cook bolognese and prepare a salad--and how does it feeeeeeeeeel? To be on your oowwwn? Except I never am whenever Bob is singing." --How to be Good, Nick Hornby

Photo: The author posing with How to be Good by Nick Hornby. (Author suggests proceeding with caution, too much Nick Hornby in excess / at the wrong time can be dangerous for your health.) Photo by Amy Dyer, fasttalker, brilliant self-confessed nerd with a weakness for the adorable, your computer-fixer, excellent photographer, and engineering student at Olin College. Just one of the many amazing people I've met.

Finale B Clip from "Rent"
There is no future, there is no past
Thank God this moment's not the last
There's only us, there's only this
Forget regret, or life is yours to miss

No other road, no other way
No day but today

Sorry, I had to do the Teen Girl Geek-Out on Rent. Life is weirder than you'd think.

01 July 2009

Another Lifetime


Suddenly I turned around and she was standing there
With silver bracelets on her wrists and flowers in her hair
She walked up to me so gracefully and took my crown of thorns
"Come in," she said, "I'll give you shelter from the storm."
--Bob Dylan


I'm trying to NOT to concentrate on the fact that I just bought my last Monatskarte. It makes my stomach churn, really. I miss the US and Americans, especially--I can't wait to be in a country where I can eavesdrop on conversations and understand everything that is being said. But for some reason, I really do not want to leave. I want to go but also not go. Weird. No more weekend trips to Vienna, that's for sure. On the other hand, I do return to Taco Taco land and infinite opening hours, and to my lovely friends and my amazing university. And also mountains and mountains of work. I'm told it's character-building.

I have put up Awesome Photos from Berlin on the Berlin post (scroll down), so you should check it out.
Photo: Taken in Silberhornstr. U-Bahn. What will I do without this society?

26 June 2009

Go lightly from the ledge babe, go lightly on the ground

Oh baby don't you know I suffer?
Oh baby can't you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretences
How long before you let me go?
oooh...You set my soul alight oooh...You set my soul alight
(oooh...You set my soul alight)
Glacier's melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(oooh...You set my soul alight)
Glacier's melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
I thought I was a fool for no-one
Oh baby I'm a fool for you
--"Supermassive Black Hole," Muse (Full disclosure: I am a Twilight fan.)

And on their horses come charging by,
among them girls who have almost outgrown
this galloping of steeds; midway in passing
they look about, across, over, anywhere---
And now and then appears a snow-white elephant.

--"The Merry-Go-Round" by Rainer Maria Rilke (trans: Fleming & Lange)


Lessons from the Englischer Garten:

Saw a couple taking their wedding photos in the Garden. It was so cute I almost wanted to puke: they had a great photographer, obviously. The bride was wearing a strapless dress with an empire waist and an aquamarine sash, and the groom was wearing a black suit and tie, and they were reclining as if to picnic under the shade of this tree (with a blanket and wicker picnic basket), and were reading a book together, and an old-style black umbrella behind the bride. Then they got out old tennis/badmintion looking rackets and started playing badminton. It was so Edwardian, and now since I connect Edwardian with Twilight (see above), it melts my heart always. So I watched them and read my current book, Roots by Alex Haley.

I was walking in the Garden and heard these two girls (my age) talking to each other and I realized they were speaking English at the same time one of the girls SMILED at me in greeting. SMILED. I couldn't believe how flabbergasted I was. I haven't been greeted with a smile by a stranger since my America days.

The sun's come out at last after a week of fifty-degree rainy and overcast weather (though I would rather this weather than sticky gross humidity any day) in München. I am told there is an 80% chance of rain tomorrow. But this weekend's a homework weekend anyway, got some loose ends to sew up.

I'm heading into my last month here in München, and I've got some really mixed feelings. It reminds me of "Almost Famous," when Russell explains to the kid that "it's the circus. No one wants to leave. No one wants to say goodbye." I have a hard time thinking about leaving, even though I'm not even the biggest fan of German culture. But there's some things I really really like (even if I can't place my finger on it), and I don't want to leave those things behind. But as I thought in the Garden, I've had so many adventures here, many of which I wasn't planning for anyway. I've had some bad moments and some amazing, soul-searing great moments. I've learned so much. But there are plenty of adventures ahead of me, too, just around the corner.
Photo: A piece of paradise in Berlin, taken in the area of our hotel.

23 June 2009

Erst kommt das Fressen, dann kommt die Moral.

"Erst kommt das Fressen, dann kommt die Moral." --Bertolt Brecht (This is hard to translate. "Fressen" is to eat, but in an animal way, to feed. The best translation I can come up with is "First comes the feeding, then comes morality," i.e., humans are, in an Orwellian way, just pigs in disguise, we worry about our own stomachs first then deal with morality. It's a cool line, though, and very Mackie Messer.)

I just got back from playing Texas Hold Em' Poker with:

2 German-English speaking Germans,
1 German-English-Greek speaking Greek,
1 German-Italian speaker,
1 German-Italian-English speaker,
and 1 English-Italian-Croatian immigrant to Italy speaker.

The Italians I met were very friendly and reminded me of America a lot. No wonder they do so well there. They were very open and inquisitive, and had questions about America and the English language. One wanted to know what Americans thought of Canada. I told him we didn't, then I said, "When I think of Canada, I think of trees.... Lots of trees."

I put my Reparienantrag for some minor repairs in my room at the Hausverwaltung yesterday around 4PM. I came back to my room today around 5:30 and found the slip on my desk, with both items repaired to perfection.

I love Studentenstadt. I'm gonna miss this Augustiner-Bier-drinking place so much, even if the food at Pot and Tribuehne isn't so awesome (I had some VERY sorry excuses for chicken fajitas the other night at Pot, and what they call "nachos" are tortilla chips with some cheese melted on top), the atmosphere makes up for it by about a thousand. Mabee Dining Hall won't have a fraction of the Cool Factor that is here.

21 June 2009

The City of Fevered Dreams

Some days her shape in the doorway
Will speak to me
A bird's wing on the window
Sometimes I'll hear her when she's sleeping
Her fever dream
A language on her face
--"Fever Dream," by Iron & Wine

Und der Haifisch, der hat Zähne
und die trägt er im Gesicht
und Macheath, der hat ein Messer
doch das Messer sieht man nicht.

An 'nem schönen blauen Sonntag
liegt ein toter Mann am Strand
und ein Mensch geht um die Ecke
den man Mackie Messer nennt.

Und die minderjährige Witwe
deren Namen jeder weiß
wachte auf und war geschändet -
Mackie, welches war dein Preis?
Wachte auf und war geschändet -
Mackie, welches war dein Preis?
--"Die Moritat von Mackie Messer," by Bertolt Brecht in"Die Dreigroschen Oper" (The ThreePenny Opera), this song is now famous as "Mack the Knife." (I chose Brecht's version because it sounds most like the one I heard--it might actually BE the one I heard!)

"You can't describe Berlin, because it's always changing."


With JYM I had the great opportunity to travel with the Resident Director and other JYM students to that *other* German city: Berlin. We met at 9a.m. at the Hauptbahnhof and then hopped on the 9:21 ICE train to Berlin. It was a great travel, just chatting and talking to the other (five) students on the trip and avoiding homework as much as possible. We went up through Ingolstadt through Leipzig and then arrived at the gigantic, gleaming, six-story-high, modern Berlin Hauptbahnhof. This Hauptbahnof is prominent in the first couple of scenes of the recent film The International, and is quite glitzy, a Bahnhof of the future. Our Resident Director (HP) explained to us that, in the Wall Days, there were of course two separate train stations, so after the Vereinigung of Germany, they just decided to build a train station in the middle, but there aren't really any major establishments. So, whereas as in most train stations, you walk out and you are in the center of the city, here it's not so much the case. I could see Alexanderplatz to the south (famous for the Fernseherturm), but there was a lot that wasn't developed.

Interestingly enough, across the tiny road from the Bahnhof was a little platform set up for beach volleyball. Yep, you read it right--beach volleyball. We peeked in to see a couple of bronzed--well, maybe not bronzed---muscled women tossing around the fabled white ball in the middle of a parking lot. So it goes.

What's interesting about Berlin, HP went on to say, is that it is really a city with no center. This must add to the collective Berlin identity crisis. If you look at a map of Berlin, right in the physical center of the city is the Tiergarten--so essentially, there's nothing in the middle. Because of the Wall, there isn't really a center at all. All the "sights" are in some essence crowded around the four corners of the Tiergarten.


We walked from the Hauptbanhof to Hotel Bella (south of the Zoologicsher Garten) where we had a whole half-floor, living room, bathroom, and balcony to ourselves, with three rooms for the six of us. It was quite plush and very nice. We settled in and then headed to get a bite to eat at a Berlin-famous currywurst station. (HP speaks in Ger-englisch, which is amusing to hear. "Wir koennen ein bite to eat haben," or "ja, und wir muessten ein Babysitter (this is a German word) einstellen und den ganzen Abend mit boring people verbringen") We practically marched across Berlin, where we saw All The Sights, most of which don't really come to my mind right now.

Berlin--Berlin. Berlin's a fascinating city, it really is. It's screwed up in the best way. I saw a girl walking down an ordinary sidewalk licking her ice cream cone--this kinda grungy sidewalk under gray skies, and thought about how most of the time, I eat my ice cream on glitzy Leopoldstrasse in beautiful, green Munich and the contrast couldn't have been bigger. We stopped by a sidewalk sale with random Berlin stuff and T-shirts and also a whole rack of German army jackets (and one U.S. army jacket), and one girl bought one with the name "Schoenborn" (schoen=beautiful, and then the nice word "born") for 25 euro. He must have known he'd get a good price for that last name when he sold it to this store. They also had the hugest collection of second-hand leather jackets in very good condition.

All the shops we walked by weren't Munich schicki-micki at all, but really cool. Just selling the niftiest stuff, cool, not kitschy. DDR-influenced fashion: leather jacket top with a pastel floral skirt and Birkenstocks in the storefront windows, minimalist dresses, NEAT quality postcards (one had a brick wall with a closed rolling metal window gate thingy that said "URLAUB" --vacation--on it). A row of beautiful buildings, then an schrecklich grey building with "KAPITIALISM ZERSTOERT . . . . " (capitalism destroys--then listed several good things we like to have in our lives, like normality, freedom, etc). These people don't want to cooperate by making things all Stepford for the others. Definitely not a Munich trait.

We saw the Kaiser Wilheim Memorial and its opposing (protestant!! We're in the North now) modern church--really gorgeous, with most of the walls covered in blue stained glass pieces. When the sun shines--if that happens in Berlin--the whole building glows blue. On the way over, I noticed a Muslim woman and her male counterpart trying to do the old windshield-cleaning at stoplight gig. One man honked furiously her, rolled down the window and called her over, and shook his hand in anger as he exchanged some heated words. A man driving a BMW wagon talking to a female in the driver's seat tried to wave her off, didn't give her any money, then engaged the wash on the car to try to get the muck off.

I can certainly tell you that. Would. Not. Happen. in Munichland. I can't even *imagine* windshield cleaners here. The concept is unvorstellbar. Berlin had so many beggars and was a much poorer (but also cheaper!) city than Munich. Restaurants of every variety--Russian across from the Armenian, Chinese, Vietnamese--you name it, it's in Berlin. Immigrants of all kinds.

At a quarter to 8 we walked over to the Admiralpalast, where the German-language version of the Broadway hit The Producers was showing. Let me tell you, THAT was a weird experience: the Nazi eagle flying around in a little animation spiel, the famous long red flags (with a black pretzel where the swastika is--displaying it is, understandably, illegal here) hanging outside the building. We got into the beautiful (if more than half-empty, but I think it's been there for a couple of weeks) building, and the show commenced. I was intrigued to see what the Germans would find funny, and that part with the Hitler-saluting pigeons they seemed to really enjoy. However, when the "show" within the show started, the over-the-top swastika formation, the practically naked woman with the Nazi eagle on her crotch, the gigantic "SPRINGTIME FOR HITLER"--people laughed, but not so much. (Interesting article: "Can Hitler be a Hit? Musical 'The Producers' takes the stage in Berlin" agrees with me about the playwright character) I was suprised by the number of older people there. They probably aren't old enough to have been directly involved, but someone in their 70s would remember a little of it. The younger people seemed to find it funnier. . . . It's a great question of how one deals with the past and especially a history that has earned (rightfully) so much shame--Nazism was no fun, and Denazification was no fun, either.
After that we wandered around one of the major streets of Berlin, where several huge differences with Munich came to light (haha). There were about 2 sluttishly-dressed women with fanny packs per block, standing around and looking at the men walking around. We overheard one conversation in English, where the woman was saying, "We have a big bed, you can relax and do what you want." I could not believe it--prostitution! In Germany! It was certainly not the Germany I knew, the conservative Catholic Bavaria. My eyes were just popping wide open as I gazed at these women.

We walked into a really interesting art house/cultural center place. I realized I felt a little strange, and this was because I am totally unaccustomed to being in a *store* with *items for sale* when it is dark outside. Everything in Munich except for food-service places (cafes and restaurants and bars, not grocery stores) shuts down around 8 PM if not before (strict Catholic laws in Bavaria), but this is not so much the case in Berlin. I even saw VIDEO STORE in the area of our hotel that was open on Sunday from 12 to midnight!!!!!! I mean, a video store! Totally a non-essential. Wow.

Behind the cultural center they were doing this sculpture-making welding, with actual fire, ala Chris Stevens from Northern Exposure. It was a sculpture garden and continued with more tents and such selling art (bear in mind, this is after the play, at around 12 midnight). Plenty of people (of the sketchy and non-sketchy variety) were walking around to look at the art. Really weird.

After that, we went to Route 66 near our hotel (open until FOUR IN THE MORNING), an American diner. They had very good milkshakes. I ordered a chicken sandwich but they put egg in it. I personally find the presence of eggs in my sandwich so revolting it's kinda turned me off to eggs in general. I don't want two chicken products, at once, please. That's like eating a hamburger with milk. But the rest of the chicken, sans Ei, was good. It was a nice restaurant, really chill, great lighting--and American food.

We had a long conversation about different types of fries and their respective advantages and disadvantages for ketchup-dipping and Brandy said, "HP, can you tell we want to go back to America?" Of course, the other five JYM'ers were full-year students and in general seem really attached to Germany. I think most of them are anxious already to visit America for a bit and then come back for an extended period of time. I do wish I shared their attitudes, I've always admired those able to "go native" and immerse themselves in a completely foreign culture and begin to not only understand, but become "The Other," that concept we're always mangling about in our liberal arts university. It's probably largely a matter of choice and just throwing yourself into it. There are parts of Germany I really like (and I did like Berlin and its more American-style city--disadvantages include poverty--but I also like Munich, which is a great beautiful city but comes with its own disadvantages, like the city being shut down at night and on Sunday), but I'm someone who requires 7 days a week store openings (for most stores) and bright lights to be happy. I like going to the Starbucks in the Quarry Market and not worry about what the eff day it is, or what time it is, because that Starbucks is going to be open come hell or high water (being a 24 hour Starbucks). So, too will the Borders' Bookstore across the way, from a very generous 9 AM to 1o or 11PM, Monday through Sunday, and it will most definitely be open on all holidays. And that's just the opening times, I haven't even gotten started on how much I generally prefer American standards of interaction. If my choice was Munich and my Louisiana town, I'd choose Munich in a heartbeat, but thank God there are more cities in the U.S. more to my liking, on the San Antonio scale of things.

We totally crashed at the hotel until the next day. On Saturday we hit more sights, went sans HP and got utterly lost but found our way back again (go team go!), finally rendevoused with HP at a Flohmarkt, which had some interesting things and was actually a NEAT flea market with lots of great quality stuff. No prices--totally open to haggling. I kinda prefer to know the price beforehand, though, but still.

We saw even more sights which I can't exactly remember--Potsdamer Platz near the site of the Wall due to our getting off course--Humboldt University, Rotes Rathaus, a memorial to the victims of Nazisozialismus (weeping woman with her dead son), Brandenburg Tor (where we had a little picnic in full view of the Tor, and HP and some others posed with a Stormtrooper in front of the gate--like I said. Berlin's a weird place.). We ate lunch thanfully under the full cover of trees, since it was pouring down rain and like 55 degrees. Then, about 30 minutes later, the sun was shining and the skies were clear. We had decided to give our leftover food to a homeless man since we wouldn't need it for the duration of our time in Berlin, and we went to the bathroom in a lovely Kunstmuseum (I mean, nice, clean, state-of-the-art lobby). An immigrant family surrounded a couple of members of the group (in the lobby) and asked for food or money, so Sheeba gave the food to them, where they ate it in the lobby. See what I mean? A city of contradictions---this state of the art lobby juxtaposed with this immigrant family eating our leftover food on the steps inside the lobby. Just a strange city.

We had a Kaffeepause in a "little old lady cafe," the Opercafe adjacent to the Berlin Opera, which was gorgeous--4 euro slices of beautiful cakes, the BEST Eisschokolade that I've ever had (hands down), teas. We all ordered a drink and a Kuechen and sampled each other's cake. The cafe was this ornate, chandalier, pink-and-green, maple wood style cafe. And just earlier that day we had walked into this Yuppie, Starbucks-style coffeehouse, and later that day I'd walk into this cafe hole of dank Communist memoriabilla. The contrast couldn't be greater if you tried. Berlin is most certainly a city with an identity crisis, a city in constant flux, a city of so many transients (people consider themselves "Berliners" if they've lived there for 3 or 4 years and very few Berliners are natives) that it really can't have an identity because the face of Berlin is always changing.

We went off to see the Pergamon Museum, which was fascinating. After that, we split up, and I went off with two others to find a little cafe spotted during our walk. In the end, it turned out to be a slightly smelly and empty Communist-memorabilla cafe, so we decided to go ahead to the rendevous point, Depointe (sp?), which was this awesome cafe. Julie and Dan ordered the bier, which of course in Berlin is something that would cause the Southerners to foam at the mouth in anger: it comes in red and green, like a -tini or something, and is actually quite tasty. I ordered a nice Earl Grey tea and a tortellini in cheese and filled with spinich, which was very yummy. The weather was nice enough to sit outside in the 'backyard,' a very very tiny piece of a garden here in the big, bustling city.

After Abendessen we went ins Theater to see Die Dreigroschenoper (The Threepenny Opera) by Bertolt Brecht in HIS OWN HOME THEATER, the Berliner Ensemble. Talk about cool, cool, cool. The play was done in a Tim Burton style, which was totally up my alley. Mackie walked across the stage with his back to the audience as "Die Moritat von Mackie Messer" played and the criminals walked across the black canvas with circled-lights being illuminiated--I didn't describe it well, but I bought the program, so if you know me, ask and I will show you, because it is really cool. It is probably one of my Top 5 shows I've seen. Mackie walked with a walking stick dangling off his hand then finally turned around to reveal his Joker-white face and firey red hair. Just so cool. The play was done in a super-minimalist style, with these shelves of neon lights used for most of the setting, and sound-effects plus actor imitation for all the "gaps," such as doors opening, change jingling and such. Most of the main characters had their faces painted this pasty, Joker white color. . . . and the ending was actually "happy" but apparently it's a parody. Of course, it's Brecht, so the entire play is a critique of capitalism, but how awesome to hear this critique in Berlin, where capitalism and communism stood as actual physical divides?

(Note: Theater could benefit from installation of air-conditioning. I always think of theaters as dark, cold places. This is not so in Europe. Dan and I thought we were going to pass out and immediately ran out for air at intermission. I enquired with HP about why there is no AC in Europe and he said, "Wir brauchen es nicht." We don't need it? I think we most definitely do.)

After the gloriously done production, we posed for pictures with Brecht's statue outside and then headed back to the hotel. (Side note: Germans never give standing ovations, even at this amazing, signature Brecht piece in Brecht's theater. I don't know why this is. Would it be too much enthusiasm in this postmodern world?)

Sunday we brunchten at a little Italian cafe. Brunching is a popular Thing to Do in Berlin. I think you can probably brunch in Munich, but here almost every restaurant advertises its Sunday Brunch. After that, we left HP to go look at the famous multi-block Holocaust Memorial, taking a double-decker bus pretty close to the site. The site pretty much resembles a graveyard, and is actually a great experience. I walked through part of it, where the blocks get higher and higher and you can't see your way around as much anymore. It was a very well done memorial and I'm glad I got the opportunity to see it. Then, we hopped on the M41 to Hauptbahnhof where we arrived in perfect time to meet HP at our Gleis in Richtung Innsbruck. 6 1/2 hours later, our little group of 7 arrived in our quiet, still corner of Germany.

Photos: (1) Berlin t-shirts at a sidewalk sale while walking around Berlin (2), Sheba is ready to go at Muenchen Hauptbahnhof (3), German National Museum--"German History: We are one people," (motto of the Wiedervereinigung of Germany) (4), HP fights Stormtrooper in front of Brandenburg Tor--I told you Berlin was a weird place (5), DDR fashion (6) Alte Computers for sale? (7), Admiralpalast decks out for The Producers production (7), Justin & Britney are together again at Madam Tussaud's in Berlin--my pre-Kevin Federline knowledge of Britney is so much faded I forgot this match ever was.

13 June 2009

Wanders in Wien

Slow down, you crazy child you're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid? Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You'd better cool it off before you burn it out You've got so much to do and
Only so many hours in a day
But you know that when the truth is told..
That you can get what you want or you get old You're gonna kick off before you even
Get halfway through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?
--
"Vienna," by Billy Joel

My two friends Rebecca and Sarah (whom I visited in London in April) finished off their semester at a university outside of London and began the last part of their Grand Tour, landing in Geneva, going through Switzerland and Salzburg, and then to Vienna, where I met them. I took an 8:20 train out of Munich (I got the Europa special, one way for 29 euro!) and arrived in Vienna just at noon last Friday. R&S picked out the hotel, a little pension AT the U-Bahn stop Neubaugasse, only two stops away from the Westbahnhof where I had come in. I scaled up the escalator at Neubaugasse and there they were, the duo, waiting pour moi! I gave them both a big hug and got settled into the very nice hotel room which we all shared. My mother had given me a Top 10 Vienna Book, which came in VERY helpful throughout the trip and helped me get the lay of the land--I feel like I understand now how Vienna is laid out, how to get from one place to the other generally. We had lunch at a little cafe and then set out on foot. We walked through the LOVELY Hofburg Palace, which was just astounding, saw the Lippianizer (sp?) stallions themselves in their stables, the winter riding school, walked all the way up to the Donaukanal where I flipped OUT when I saw the OPEC building across the river. Oh, I love a good cartel. We wandered through the north side of the city, south of the river. Vienna's lovely, and it struck me (having never really been to France) more as a French-feeling city, with its 19th century buildings, than as a *German* town. Indeed, its German language seemed more to be an accident of nature than anything else. It did not seem to be the culture.

We walked all along the river, and I had a desire to see the famous Hundertwasserhaus which was a way off, but we walked it anyway, and it was well worth seeing. The Hundertwasserhaus is simply an apartment building, but with trees, funky windows, fountains, mosaics--the works. I first remember seeing it in Neue Horizonte, my first semester German textbook, and thought--"Wow, that's cool. I've got to see that if I'm ever in Vienna." So, I got to see it. After this (and walking back), we had traversed the entire southern half of the city and we were EXHAUSTED. We had dinner at a little pizza place right across the street on Mariahilfstrasse. It was a great location because there were so many restaurants and shops right on our street.

Vienna struck me as very cultural, and a more international city than Munich. Immediately, I saw ads for Indian satellite, ads for international cuisine-restaurants, things in German, English, and occasionally French. It was touristy--not too bad--but touristy. It was not nearly as clean as Munich, which surprised me. I saw thousands of cigarette butts on the ground and parts of it felt a little grimier than Munich does, and there were certainly more street beggars there than Munich has. Men dressed in Mozart-era clothing peddled concerts at Schloss Schoenbrunn in every part of the city, and I'm not sure how that raises the "quality" of the concerts at all, but we had to work like heck to evade them. This one guy was like, "Do you speak German? Do you speak German? Are you visiting Vienna?" calling after us as we shoved past him. I feel sorry for them. Like that song "Goin' to Acapulco" says, "Don't everyone got to eat? And I'm no different when it comes to scratching for my meat." Still, I think the economy could help them find more constructive jobs.


We also visited St. Stephensdom, which was a great old Gothic-style church, where Mozart and his wife Constance were married, interestingly enough, and their sixth child was baptized there. We paid the 3,50 eintritt for the South Tower climb and went up and up and up--I think 350 steps. It was much more fun to do the tower climb with two other people. Often, I'm alone and just like, ladeedah, but we had some fun and games. The top of the tower had some views out windows, and I saw an actual skyscraper-Houston-like skyline out one of the windows, which struck me as so odd. One of my favorite things to do upon landing in Houston is to look out and spot the skyline, because often the road seems to lead straight to the Emerald City. Many times, as a child, I looked forward to escaping my small-town tedium with occasional jaunts off to Houston. Thrills would rush in me as our car neared the skyline and we entered this concrete jungle. We would drive down Westheimer and my heart sang for shops! restaurants! huge bookstores! coffeehouses! bakeries! museums! things to do! So I have always had a positive association with skylines, and seeing that tiny tiny bit of Houston here in Vienna, the other side of the Atlantic. . . . strange things indeed.

As we walked--erm, trudged--back to dinner, we saw a very interesting thing right outside the Staatsoper: a gigantic screen on the left side of the building broadcast the concert that was going on live inside, and a huge crowd was outside, and applauded when it was over, after the fat lady sang. (I'm sorry, I had to say that.) They were invested in it. It struck me as FASCINATING. Sarah was a little unsure about this being a tax-supported endeavour, but as I told her, it was a truly an opportunity to look inside the minds of the Europeans. Many times I am very frustrated with how they operate and I know that's because I'm unable to access their perspective. But this was a case when I was able to understand, because I knew their rationale (from previous reading and study): to their minds, the people have a right to experience their own culture. Viennese have a right to access their opera, art, literature. Of course, again, the downfall of this is homogeneity: this wouldn't slide in the U.S. Imagine subsidised tickets to Civil War exhbits, African-American exhibits, colonial exhibits, but not an Indian cultural dancing show or a museum of Greek culture. Who's to say the Indians or the Greeks have any less claim on the history of the United States than the African-Americans and the colonists do? In America (like I explained to fellow German intern), we're all mutts. Every culture brings its own from the motherland and we just mix it in.

On Saturday we went out to the gorgeous Schloss Schoenbrunn, the summer palace of the Habsburg Empire. Franz Joseph did a lot of work here, along with the very tedious hair-brushing and refusal-of-food by his wife, the famous Elisabeth or "Sisi," much beloved in Bavaria and Austria (she was actually born in Munich, in a building on Leopoldstrasse). She sounded like a not very nice female, who didn't even like Franz Joseph that much (who was totally enamoured of her for some strange reason), would refuse to eat with him because she had a figure to watch, hello? And spending hours a day caring for her locks. Not a Princess Diana, huh? Or as my friend Kniquii would say, she did not use her powers For Awesome.


Schoenbrunn was BEAUTIFUL, though. We took the U-Bahn there (the U-Bahn system in Vienna impressed me. There were--GASP--multiple ELECTRONIC Kiosks. I am shouting because in Munich, there is an Old Machine--O.M.--for which one can pay only with CASH, but this is only for short-term cards, up to 3 days and for different types of levels. Then there is a NEW electronic machine--E.M.---for longer cards, which does not take cash and only takes a special kind of card that you have to buy from MVG. So I buy my cards at the little bakery in StuSta U-Bahn, which is an authorized dealer just because they happen to be on site. But I can't buy my monthly card at Marienplatz, though would you not think this a hub? But if I go up to the lady at the window--the official lady at the desk that says Muenchnerverkehrsgesellschaft, the people who are supposed to be running this whole operation--and ask her for a monthly card because, hi, my little bakery kiosk is closed today--she cannot sell me one and refers me to the E.M. But I only have $$$, I say. Ah, then you have to go to Hauptbanhof. I don't curse, but WTF??? Compare this to lovely Vienna, and I have provided photographic evidence for you. You are in U-Bahn. Ah, you think. I need Ticket. You go to Machine. There are Two for Multiple Users But they are Same Type of Machine. You can buy ANY TICKET YOU WANT for the U-Bahn system. You select option. You pay with cash or 5 different types of credit cards. IT PRINTS! You stamp. You Move On With Life).

So anyway, Schloss Schoenbrunn was wonderful. We paid, I think 13 euros with the concession for the Classic Light Tour, which allowed us to see the whole castle and then the grounds. It was gorgeous. The audio guide came free, and it was sad that it was kinda cursory, but it is a big castle and time's always a-wastin'. We were in the room where Mozart gave his first concert and there was this little Indian English-speaking boy, about 8 or so, who was with his brother and listening to the audio guide as it told us this story. The kid got all wide-eyed and looked at his brother and said, "MOZART!" It was adorable. We fell behind a tour group of Asian people. I have to applaud them--they have absolutely no intention of ever blending in to society (as was my intention when I came here), but they are for some reason, since I don't know the Asians well at all, very very curious to explore and travel and learn about Western culture (I was behind a similar group at Mrs. Macaquire's Chair in Australia) and don't let long plane flights and almost insurmountable cultural differences stop them. They just sign up for the tour group and are off their merry way.



After seeing the impressive palace we wandered out to the even more stunning (and large) grounds. We couldn't have possibily done it all, it was just so much. We walked up the hill behind the palace to the Gallerie, a building from which one can look down to the palace but also out over Vienna. It was gorgeous--probably hotter than I had expected, but still gorgeous nonetheless. I saw the rolling hills encircling the city, down to the palace. We had our tickets to the Gallerie, so we climbed up the very very top and enjoyed the crazy gusts of wind while lazing on the benches up there. After spending a little time there, we got off and walked the long walk back down the palace, out of the grounds, to the station, collapsing on the U-Bahn. We took the U-Bahn over to Karlsplatz, near the Belevedere Palace. We had to walk a bit to the grounds (for future reference: don't go down Prinzeugenstrasse, that's the long-way 'round), but we passed a fascinating monument: the Liberation Monument. Believe me, it's a bit weird to be wandering out in Vienna and run into a gigantic monument with Russian all over it. Reminds one how close one is to that Eastern Empire. Budapest is closer to Vienna than is Munich, remember (and the train to Budapest departed opposite the one to Munich, a strange thought to me). My Russian's really bad and I can just make sense of the alphabet, but I did make out the word "Slava," so I was very proud of myself.



The Belvedere Palaces are quite amazing. Built with the reward from the Habsburgs for the defense of Vienna against the Turkish Siege of 1683, Prince Eugene of Savoy did quite a good deal of work over a long period of time on this place. We walked around the gardens behind the Upper Belvedere (yes, there are two buildings!) and then walked out and then rounded down through the impressive grounds through the Lower Belvedere. I wish I could have seen it (Gustav Klimt's "The Kiss" is here), but again, there's just not enough time, and I was glad enough to have seen impressive Schoenbrunn. I'll have to come back to Vienna again someday and complete the tour.


We finally found dinner near our hotel, completely famished again. I had to peel my boots off my feet. We crashed and woke up the next morning to take the train to Munich. We took the Oesterreich-Bundes-Bahn (the nicest train I've been on yet--they had a little entertainment center for children, screens with maps/trip information showing, electronic seat reservation above the seats--and we were in second class!) through Salzburg (that's kinda weird, believe me--oh, we're just passing through Salzburg) where we picked up a group of noisy young Americans. One girl seemed insist on calling out the speed we were going: "We're going 120 kilometers per hour! We're going 55 kilometers per hour!" and others seemed compelled to voice, loudly (it's a big country, you have to scream to be heard), every thought going through their head: "I wish I was taking more pictures. I'm tired. When do we get to Munich? Did you go into Chris' room last night? I got pictures!"


We arrived in Munich unscathed and no worse for the wear, and I took S&R back to my little cubicle. I explored Munich with them on foot and tried to give them a lay of the land, and they spent the next couple of days (plus one more than expected, due to the missing of their flight) exploring Munich, and liked it very much.


I just had a good experience! I went to the bakery in the U-Bahn to get an iced tea (eistee). I don't go that often--maybe once a week or so, and probably less--but I always get the same thing: a Nestea with lemon. I went up and the lady said, "Eistee?" I couldn't believe it! Do a jig! I'm a familiar face! I'm a familiar face!


This will be the topic of my last post (ahem, foreshadowing), but it seemed appropriate:

Kathy, I said as we boarded the Greyhound bus
Michigan seems like a dream to me now
It took me four days to hitchhike from Saginaw
I've gone off to look for America

-"America," Simon & Garfunkel

Photos: (1) Sarah and Rebecca in the Viennese sunset by the Donaukanal (2), entrance to the Hofburg Palace (3), a ticket system that makes sense, Neubaugasse (4), Schloss Schoenbrunn from the Gallerie

10 June 2009

New York is a State of Mind

(Author's Note: still continuing on the updates. For my visit to Switzerland and my week with my parents, please see the post below this one. Update on Vienna and Sarah and Rebecca's visit yet to come. Please check back on Monday, 15 June.)

At this point in my journey I have roughly seven weeks left until I return to the United States. It's been an interesting time. I've had, to borrow someone else's expression about his study abroad experience, the best moments of my life so far here. Seriously---the top 5 best moments of my life, 4 of them have happened here. I've also had some of the worst moments. I would say that maybe 2 of my Top 5 Worst Moments happened here, too. It's been a FANTASTIC experience so far, it really has. I've grown so much through this---in an artificial setting like school, I'm not sure that I would have faced as many realities as I have here in Deutschland.

While I was in Switzerland with my parents, my mother made an off-hand remark about one of my favorite TV shows, described as a "fish out of water" by The Wall Street Journal, Northern Exposure, and about Dr. Joel Fleischman's longing for New York City as he's stranded in Cicely, paying off his debt to the state of Alaska. It made me think about how one is so accustomed to a culture with which one clicks, for some reason. At the end, Maggie tells Joel that she'd asked herself, "If Fleischman asks me to go back to New York with him, will I go?" But, as she tells Joel, New York is his home, and not hers. (So ends the love story, the relationship that never was.) The last scene is amazing--Joel's on the Staten Island ferry, and there's a sense of homecoming, but also the sense that he's changed, and Forever Nightshade Mary plays as Joel looks out over the skyline and Maggie flips over his postcard which reads simply but profoundly, "New York is a state of mind." I had thought once I related to Joel, in a "aw, how cute, he wants to go back to New York" way, but now I get it to a degree that I didn't before. To him, New York is the center of his soul, where everything runs as he expects it run--New York understands him, he understands New York.

I relate to that now. Today I had a moment of wonder in Karstadt when I saw shelves of jewelry items branded with "NOT BEING SOLD BECAUSE OF INVENTORY." In the U.S., that's sacreligious--that's why you close business or do inventory after hours, because in opening hours the goal is actually to, ahem, make sales. The logic goes against mine. It frustrated me so much at first, but now I'm reaching a nice halfway point. Earlier it seemed so much of a grim, concrete reality: that I was locked into this place with strange people and a strange language (hahah, you think you're studying abroad and you realize you've sent yourself to Mars), a foreign culture, juggling bagging your own things and paying at the same time as the second person's items comes crashing upon your things, having to pay for everything in a roundabout way, having trouble being understood and understanding, nothing being open on holidays or Sundays, better buy everything you need before 4PM Saturday---this was the grim reality through with I trudged.

But now, at the halfway point, I smile at the German people and their quirks, I'm used to not understanding and/or not being understood, I can skillfully bag my things (and remember to bring my own plastic bags, as here they cost euros) and pay at the same time without irritating all of the grocery store shoppers, and I have just gotten used to some of the more complex things that I've come to see as part of the Germans' reality until they decide to change it, but not part of my reality. The brick walls I run up against are familiar now, so familiar they're harmless. The awareness that my time is finite (which did NOT feel finite before) has made me more understanding, more tolerant, and more aware of what the European experience has done for me, and has actually made me paradoxically wish I could stay longer, like a quote from Lolita that I love: "let her stay, let her stay. . ." I see how much I've changed in the past months and wonder what change would lay ahead if I stayed.

I've met so many fascinating people, I've done so many fascinating things, and I've realized that this is a singular experience in my life. I've realized what it's done for me, but I know America and 24-hour Starbucks and Taco Taco and Borders' open late into the night seven days a week, is back there somewhere, waiting for when I'm done, and that's a comforting thought. And New York is, after all, a state of mind.

I leave you with a quote that is very meaningful to me at this moment, from the same fabulous episode:

"Maggie: I used to think of all the billions of people in the world, and of all those people, how was I going to meet the right ones? The right ones to be my friends, the right one to be my husband. Now I just believe you meet the people you're supposed to meet."

04 June 2009

"Das isch Züri," or, Utopia Mapped



Early today as I watched while the skyline was shaking, I heard a rumbling
Early today the mechanical city was waking
And I ran out stumbling, mumbling
Out through the laughter of children and dogs
Did you see our brother
He was here the other day
But he only came to say that he can't breathe here
Did you see his lady, she was reaching for his hand
Just as if to tell her man that she can't either
They're bound to go
And the sun may find me running after them, seeing something far away
We won't be back


--"From Silver Lake," Jackson Browne


On Sunday morning, the day of Kim's departure, I got up early to meet my train to head off to Zürich and meet my parents there. It was altogether quite simple: U-Bahn to Marienplatz, S-Bahn to Hauptbahnhof (2 stops), walk up to my train, presto, easy. The train trip was about 5 hours, which was on the longish side, but altogether much more comfortable than airplane travel. It was beautiful, we went through all sorts of small little towns. I remarked on a little grocery store in a tiny town in the mountains called, in German, the Oasis, with a little painting of a lush paradise in the desert. I loved the juxtaposition there. The train also went past the Bodensee, which is a HUGE. HUGE. lake at the foot of Lindau, where we made one of our stops.


I arrived just before noon in the pretty and charming old Zurich Hauptbahnhof, where I met my father. Together we cabbed back to the hotel, which marked the first time I had been in an automobile in 10 weeks: it did seem a bit unfamiliar. I was surprised how much in Zurich was closed on Sunday, even many cafes and restaurants were closed (about half, or a little less than that, I would say). In Munich, all the shops are closed, but you can at least eat at a cafe or restaurant. Zurich is a beautiful city, though, situated just on the lovely Zurichsee in the mountains, and everyone seems to speak at least three languages. You will know of course, that the Swiss have their own little brand of German, Swiss-German, which is just plain weird. See my title of this post; this is actually an ad in Switzerland where they've abandoned the "t" and added a "ch" for the "ist" (is).


I was very interested to scope out the differences between the Swiss and the Germans, or, more specifically, the Munichners and the Zurichers. Zurich is much, much smaller than Munich, though the people were more outgoing and more inclined to kindness to "outsiders" than I feel would be the case in a German town of the same size. (Of course, Zurich is a combination of many influences, so maybe it's not quite fair to make a comparsion, since there can't ever really be a German town "like" Zurich.) I was at the hotel buffet pouring some orange juice and the waitress needed to get in my area, so she just touched me on the back to let me know she was there. In Germany, you would be greeted by a very loud and harsh "VORSICHT!" while they would mutter "youstupididiot" under their breath. Also, the waiters we had at various restaurants (not all expensive--well, not by Zurich standards, anyway--everything in Zurich is teuer, teuer, teuer, which would depress me if I lived there and wasn't a millionaire) were all just more open. I had asked one server about the meaning of a flag, and she went off to ask another server to get the right answer, and was just in general more open than I felt I have encountered in Deutschland. More neighborly? Perhaps is the right word. Here people are much more inclined to erect fences than to share. But, I'm not really sure which influences are responsible, and Zurich could be such an European singuarlity that it can't be replicated nor fairly compared to other European cities.

We had dinner with two of my mother's colleagues, who have both lived in Switzlerand for about 5 years. One has a gorgeous Golden Retriever dog. The dog has a tram card! I saw it with my own eyes. The dog comes to work, since apparently it is illegal in Switzerland to leave your dog alone for more than 4 hours. Your neighbors will report you. Wow, talk about government intervention. You cannot buy a house in Zermatt unless you list your primary residence there, and it's very hard for non-Swiss citizens to break in the little club there, since they want to let Swissies enjoy this mountain paradise. Things are done differently here. I wonder what the Swiss 6 o'clock news is like: "A dog was lost today near the river, however a Loyal Swiss Neighbor helped the owner recover it. It had a hurt paw and was taken to the vet for immediate treatment."

After spending about 2 days in Zurich, we left mit dem Auto out of Switzerland and into Liechtenstein, which was really neat! Liechtenstein is just across a river from Switzerland and accepts the Swiss currency as well as the Liechtenstein franc. Famous as a tax evasion place, Liechtenstein has more registered companies than citizens. Apparently, a host of German citizens had been stashing away some cash here in this quiet valley, and a disgruntled employee of a Liechtenstein bank offered to sell the German government names of German citizens who had accounts in Leichtenstein, and the German government took the bait. (Spiegel Article on the "2008 Liechtenstein Affair" ) The source was paid 5 million euros for this information. I personally feel uneasy about a *government* would negotiate with someone who was violating confidence laws. How would the German government feel about an employee of Deutsche Bank selling out names of clients to a foreign power? I know you have to work with unsavory individuals sometimes to get more unsavory ones, but no one's life was being threatened here. Reading the Spiegel article is interesting though--there's very much the sense that those who have committed tax evasion are "ignoring the responsibility they have to the common good," as the article says. Hahhahahaa, I dare you to find that quote in a major American news publication. Bei uns this concept does not exist. So that's a cultural difference for you.

We also drove through the beautiful mountains of Austria, Innsbruck, and up through Southern Germany, where it began to RAIN. LIKE. NO. TOMORROW. We had thought we'd evade this rain by the time we got to Munich, as Munich is far enough north of the Alps not to get that crazy weather, but we were wrong. It was the end of May, and it was cold and wet. Thunderstorms like that may be the du jour in Lousiana, but not in this town. I do love rain and storms. . . . as I've spent less and less time in Louisiana I become more and more shocked by their occurence. It'll always be a gift I take from the Bayou State, the upbringing I had in times of storms and lightening.

I spent the following week with my parents. We did the usual, restaurants and so forth and also went to the very impressive Deutsches Museum which is a museum of science and technology. There were whole ships there, whole aircrafts, exhibition on the Wright Brothers, history of publishing, glass blowing, photography, physics, chemistry, space--impressive stuff, well done, and not boring at all. It was huge, I kept getting lost. I had an ermäßigung for being a Studentin so it was only 3 euros (8,50 euro regular admission) Sweet. Definitely going back. My father remarked about the technical detail of this, how many jet engines there were. Germans are very interested in the fine details--they want to know how things work = Siemens, BMW, etc.

We also went to Augsburg to see the Fuggerei, which was neat. Very cool settlement; I can't believe it's been there that long!

Next up: Two days later I go to Vienna, Austria, to reunite with two of my Trinity friends!

Photo: view from Restaurant Seerose out to the Zürichsee.

"Good Times In . . . Munich"

(Note: first of several blog updates. I am working in reverse, so that the blog retains a sense of chronology.)
My friend Kim from Trinity came to visit me at the end of her study abroad experience in Seville, Spain. She came just at the culmination of StuStaCulum, which is basically a four-day festival held out in the quad, with different bands playing each night, LOTS, and I mean, LOTS of beer being sold, tents and shops and food set up throughout the entire StuSta area. It was quite interesting. Many bushes were violated due to lack of public toilets---I'm not really sure why they didn't set up any port-a-potties. Another cultural oddity, it seems.

I showed Kim the sights and quite wore her out--we went to Marienplatz, Odeonsplatz, Hofgarten, etc. It was very interesting to hear Kim's experiences in Spain, and especially to hear how Spain compared to Germany. She was quite shocked when I took her to Münchner Freiheit right after she got in on a Thursday night around 11:30 and the place was as dark as time primordial--in Spain, they're just getting out. Or, as Kim said, "Even old people are out at this time in Spain!" (We ended up eating at McDonald's, open until a Spanish- American-friendly 2 a..m.) Kim took to Germany, though, and was surprised how well everyone spoke English, "practically with American accents," she said. Also she liked the cleanliness of Munich and the notable absence of street beggars and homeless people. I took her to get ice cream at Cafe Münchner Freiheit, which has the best ice cream ever.

However, for some reason, we just ran into a lot of negative Germans that day. The lady at the ice cream shop thought I didn't pay for my ice cream, when I did, and gave me a suspicious sidelong glance when I told her I had already paid. We rented a paddle boat in the Englischer Garten (tons of fun! And 5 euros for 30 minutes), and when we pulled back up to the pier, with Kim screaming, "I'm so bad at parallel parking!" we had one of the men working there take our photo of us in the boat, who did it without so much as twitching a facial muscle. Then, we were walking back into the entrance for StuSta (and also StuStaCulum, which required a 4 euro Eintritt), and I walked by (since I was going to my dorm, where I lived, and not headed toward the StuStaCulum festival at all) and this girl got up and accosted me, saying, "Hey, you, are you buying a ticket?" And I said, "I'm going to Blaues Haus." Point to blue house. "I live there. Do you need to see my student I.D. or my key?" She ignored this and looked at Kim. "And you?" I said, "She's visiting me." The girl just walked back to her post without a single apology. The entire encounter was very gruff and abrasive. I miss American openess (I won't say "friendliness," because that varies from region to region, but I mean a tendency to be a lot less suspicious of people.) a lot and get the feeling the Germans just aren't my people. Actually, I know they aren't.

We went to Hofbräuhaus the last night we were together, where we ran into a huge group of American students studying abroad in Florence who were sitting next to us. They were very drunk, but, due to this, were quite friendly, more than usual. I will give props to our dirndl-clad waitress: I gave her the payment for our meal while Kim was in the restroom, and this guy was eyeing my table and the waitress just looked up at him and barked, "Sie bleibt doch!" (She's staying there!) I caught her eye and I felt a wave of womanly simpatico between us.

Kim and I had a great time, though. I took her down to Starnberg Lake for the mountains-and-lake experience, and we got to hang out and swap stories of being abroad in Europe. All the friends I've encountered abroad, I can see how it's changed them for the good--made them stronger people, because I know we've all run into the same sorts of issues and been forced to resolve them ourselves. I'm glad study abroad has become de rigeur in America, especially at schools like Trinity, where a good portion of the students do study abroad.
Photo: Fire dancers at the last night of StuStaCulum.